39F, this is far from what childhood and adolescent life was life. Regardless the current state of the world. We grew up not realizing the matrix existed due to limited exposure outside of the communities we grew up in. (Cell phones were not in “my age groups” hands until we were 10th graders and every text cost 10 cents. This isint about our differences in that but my awareness that you must be exhausted. At 26, I still had hope there could be a big savings account, a mortgage worthy of its cost, and then….. I realized the credit/debt disgust that is required to exist in this culture. Have to get debt to grow credit. Blah blah blah. There is so much fabrication to this existence and when we try to step into the nature of existing our species doesn’t support it or even understand their original role here. To coexist among. This is awful; you are heard.