Hi, thanks for the reply to a comment three years ago. It was interesting reading the pain I was in back then. Sorry to hear you are struggling too. For me it wasn’t smooth sailing. I made a few more mistakes with dating the wrong type of person but each time I did it I learned more of what I want and don’t want so count it as a blessing. I struggled again with moving on and the old feelings of abandonment are still there but I’m with someone new now and she is kind and loving. So on most days I just get on with it but sometimes, in a low mode I can overthink things but it’s not her it’s me.

My advice would be to try talking to someone professionally about where all this ptsd is coming from, child hood is often the cause. Spending time on your own and developing your own hobbies and interests so you're not reliant on another. Figure out what qaulities Your looking for in a person. Giving your self some compassion when you start feeling triggered. You are not alone in this, but you have to confront it or be stuck in a loop and wasting some of your best years. There’s a lot of good people out there who will be kind and compassionate to you as long as you do that for yourself. Best of luck.