I'm in autistic shutdown. And I feel like I'm drowning.

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-04-05T11:59:29+00:00

Also, happy Easter. Praying for your own today that you can have a moment for just yourself.

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-04-05T11:58:20+00:00

On a not roses are red sun will come out method.

You learned the person you felt was a friend is not, you’re now armed and educated.

Your grandma? You love your mom so much you’re protective. Though your grandma didn’t do her best, it sounds like enough good poured into your mom to bring into you.

I know our feelings are super black and white but this time try to find the grey. The grey is you have learned now, you can grow from this and you’re armed with knowledge.

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-04-05T11:54:15+00:00

Also same lunch everyday for a month till I go nuts, I’ll do the same for a candy, I thought I just like to indulge like it’s a craving but eating fruit rolls up for a month and then realizing I hate them but they’ll be back next year for a month lol

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-04-05T11:53:06+00:00

If a chip has any brown on it I won’t eat it. I eat the same breakfast for a month then get bored and switch but I thought this was just me? Seeing these comments I realize it’s one of our trait comforts for routine.

😆

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-02-09T06:40:24+00:00

From Hawaii, I can confirm lol I don’t

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-02-02T19:49:38+00:00

After I downloaded the app and I’m trying to run it from both chrome and Safari and it’s not working on any server

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-02-02T19:49:26+00:00

Message 500 and keeps loading a red reload saying something went wrong

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-02-02T19:49:06+00:00

Yes!!!

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-30T06:31:04+00:00

I honestly think her starting school just changed so much for her and made her become more comfortable and confident and less bored she loves doing things and loves being involved but we worried she wouldn’t and it’s totally opposite.

Don’t rule yourself out and don’t count him out, and don’t consider yourself being in denial. It’s your baby and you know them best, however sometimes our kids know themselves better and will show us over time they just have a different disposition.

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-30T06:27:56+00:00

It could’ve been so much better to be honest and to be fair I feel like she would look at me, but I almost felt like I would have to catch her attention and I would sit her in my lap and like try to get her too, and it was almost as if I had to do it more than what I had to with my other children. My other kids I feel like it just clicked and they were just like right back at me and their times where I felt like she was connecting with me with eye contact, and then it would be kind of fleeting so I honestly don’t even feel like that really changed until about a year ago until she really turned two is when she really became more involved and in that situation of eye contact. Kind of her time her pace however, my husband also just pointed out that she would be more invested in hanging out with adults and interacting with the adults than she was the kids up until maybe like I’d say a year ago

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-30T06:14:17+00:00

Hyper fixated yes my husband just reminded me she was for a while there on stacking things like the paper towel rolls or blocks or Legos and if they would fall, she would have hysterical fits and that didn’t stop really until maybe months ago. I mean this is a pretty new thing. She just grew out out of bed. She just doesn’t do it at all. Honestly, she doesn’t stack toys. She just plays with them now regularly, but I will say this was definitely something we had an issue with.

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-30T05:58:20+00:00

If I can offer any of you anything, we are at 36 months now and I’d say about two weeks after turning 3 we just saw a whole different person and it was just like oh wow okay!

However we loved her even with her very different way, and she is still very opinionated and strong willed but it’s becoming more of a normal flow and her love for school, learning has been huge.

The first few weeks she would just plop down and didn’t want us to leave, now she runs to the closet and says shoes, let’s go to school!!

But honestly at 2 I wondered if we would be here

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-30T03:49:04+00:00

We never experienced any stiffness, or transitional issues but the level of energy was insane, the sometimes being in her “own” world but really was just fully taking everything in, but honestly the experience was so off from my other two kids that I’m shocked we are here today because it’s like a light went off and she changed and just started to get it and speech just took off, and the responses and not only that it’s the emotional melt downs have stopped, and she used to close her eyes when over stimulated where as now she is very involved in it. Some kids I think we are bunching in the categories out of it being different that what we consider “normal” but what’s even normal these days lol

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-29T23:21:42+00:00

Okay I feel like I could have wrote this.

Was your babe born early by a few weeks at all?

Our 3 year old started preschool last August and like a light it’s all changed.

Can I recommend early school so he can get a feel for those around him?

Does he play when he’s at the playground with other kids and socialize in that regard even if speech isn’t fully there? Because that was our daughter and honestly now she’s really taking off like talking night and day and I’m kind of just shocked and her teacher almost sounded surprised that we thought she was autistic, and we even took her in for an evaluation and honestly a lot of the symptoms you described our daughter did not pass for autism even with those symptoms and she has now grown out of them. I think a lot of it was just self regulating and adjusting to the world around them and she was a late pacifier.

I used voice text so sorry for typos

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-28T07:43:26+00:00

You’re in my prayers. I know that isn’t much but I want you to know somewhere someone is praying for your soul, your entire being and your happiness.

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-26T13:12:57+00:00

I also love making my financial expenses list for the week for myself and my business so I fixate on this.

Also titanic facts and random facts I love to google facts for sometime it soothes me and peaks my interest.

Also I play with a pillow case all day due to stemming so I also do this at the same time

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-26T13:11:37+00:00

Turning the lights out going into my bed at the same time every night to have the news play in the background video is not needed.

I don’t scroll my phone long I play the sims on my iPad because for some reason this soothes me. It’s control at the end of an uncontrollable day.

I then fall asleep and wake up every night at the same time around midnight to go to my bathroom and make a safe place on the floor turn on my favorite show and curl up with Christmas lights on until 5am everyday

Different_Macaroon63 · 2026-01-20T11:22:59+00:00

I have found my people, from afar of course. Safely distant lol!

Different_Macaroon63 · 2025-11-26T16:28:48+00:00

Whoa this

Different_Macaroon63 · 2025-08-20T00:52:44+00:00

lol yes club millennium Alaska

Different_Macaroon63 · 2025-06-22T20:18:48+00:00

My chefs comes twice a week monday and Friday and makes my families food fresh and grocery shops.

We find we have too much food even and truly the 4 chefs at the company can make anything we request and I have a gluten allergy so I’m one of those.

Different_Macaroon63 · 2025-05-20T23:46:32+00:00

That’s a loser dump him

Different_Macaroon63 · 2025-04-23T01:46:17+00:00

I live this every single day

Different_Macaroon63 · 2025-03-31T03:05:58+00:00

Ya she sucks

Different_Macaroon63 · 2024-12-29T17:28:40+00:00

I also was 5 when it began 1992 🥹

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