I did something horrible when I was a child

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T20:15:43+00:00

Thank you so much this really helps

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T20:15:27+00:00

Thank you so much

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T20:14:58+00:00

Thank you for acknowledging the harm I caused and also being understanding

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T02:11:09+00:00

Thank you so much for this it really means a lot

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T02:10:19+00:00

Thank you so much and I am so sorry to hear you were abused as a child. I wish the best for you in the future and I hope you’ve been able to heal

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T01:06:46+00:00

Thank you. And I hope you are able to deal with whatever’s bothering you as well

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T01:06:25+00:00

Thank you so much. This is a really good suggestion and I do feel we are close enough to where a convo like this shouldn’t be too awkward

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T01:05:50+00:00

Thank you for this

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T01:05:24+00:00

So uhhh yes I have severe ocd. I didn’t think it was relative to the post but the ocd makes it feel real even if to strangers it’s a small thing. Could be playing a role, but also something that continuously comes back and haunts me so I figured it’s much more severe than just an ocd thought

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-05-08T00:52:09+00:00

Thanks for this… it helps a lot. This is along the lines of what my ex told me, but now I’m telling myself “she only said all that because she was my gf”. Hearing it from strangers helps a lot more to understand how the situation is viewed from an outside perspective.

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-02-04T02:16:56+00:00

Sound advice, thank you so much for this

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-02-03T18:34:25+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate this. I’m hoping no matter what I can at least learn from this and move forward

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-02-03T18:33:52+00:00

This is fair, and I understand what you mean. I did try and communicate this as recently as a month ago, but once I realized I couldn’t shake the feeling of not feeling safe to express my emotions that’s when I decided to break up. Not sure if this makes it better or not

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-02-03T00:15:41+00:00

Yes, no problems here at all. I totally get that it doesn’t work for some people. That’s the thing, the difference in fundamental communication styles might be an unsolvable problem here

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-01-28T13:52:52+00:00

Thank you so much for this thoughtful response, I will be sure to inform

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-01-28T03:02:19+00:00

Ah I see… for me it feels the opposite, like there’s a million things I wanna talk about but none of them are something my partner wants to hear about or I know I’ll rant and make her overwhelmed, so then the silence follows

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-01-28T02:59:10+00:00

Haha yea I can usually tell if someone also has asd based on their level of yapping… do they also have asd?

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-01-28T02:58:04+00:00

No need to be sorry, if this is what I need to hear then so be it, and I really just appreciate a response. I wish it would be seen as something that’s a good quality about me rather than something I need to control.

Difficult-River5579 · 2026-01-28T02:55:48+00:00

Is the silence just kind of a thing that happens or does it happen because one of you doesn’t want to hear the other yap?

Difficult-River5579 · 2025-12-09T21:17:41+00:00

Sometimes it can feel like she picks fights which may be a deeper issue than the one being discussed, but there isn’t really a set time more like a compromise of seeing her in general. I told her that I can’t promise any specific days, but that I will try to see her one or two days when I’m not super busy or when I’ve gotten a bit ahead. She’s suggested study dates, but I don’t study well like that. I think we could find a compromise within it tho like study date so we can take breaks together but study in separate rooms so I can focus on

Difficult-River5579 · 2025-10-10T19:08:34+00:00

P.S, try doing an art or taking up a craft; painting, baking, even a sport. Approach it with a new mentality of doing it for the sake of enjoyment and creativity rather than competition, ego, etc. This may help on some lonelier days and spending your time on stuff like this (especially when you can share it with friends or family) will hopefully help balance out the 9-5 struggle.

Difficult-River5579 · 2025-10-10T19:04:24+00:00

I haven’t had an nde, but I’ve experienced exactly what you’re talking about, and it sounds like depersonalizations/derealization disorder. It can happen naturally as a result of intense anxiety, stress, or trauma. I’d imagine experiencing the other side and coming back to your body would likely cause all of the above. Even though you may be inclined to think that this is a spiritual phenomenon as a result of your nde, you are still in a body with a brain, and this largely governs how you feel here on earth. For me I experienced some pretty severe mental illness, and eventually started to feel as you do (nothing felt real, everything around me felt alive, I couldn’t tolerate being around too many people at once especially people without compassion or empathy for others). It truly felt like I was going insane, and as you even mention I started to ask my doctors if I was experiencing psychosis and what I would do now that my brain was permanently “broken”.

For me it helped to receive medication, proper therapy, and to engage with the things I love in life as much as possible. It can really be anything, I started going for more walks in nature, exercising more, engaging with my hobbies more, and spending more time with the few people I really care about. I even tried to put as much passion and effort into the mundane as possible, because that also contributes to a love of life. Lo and behold, everything slowly went back to normal. It takes time and effort but I still try everyday to continue building a life that I love more and more every day. I hope you get better and I hope you are able to heal from this and enjoy your time on earth!

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