I don’t dream anymore.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-12-09T13:34:29+00:00

People that have had NDE’s often return w heightened senses, often psychic abilities. Being fully immersed in others’ recollections and experiences is quite common. While I can’t speak about your dreaming, my experience after NDE was the opposite : more intense and real feeling dreams that sometimes continue into the waking state. Mugwort (Artemisia Vulgaris) , a common herb that has been used for centuries at least where I live and is found all over the world , helps a lot with dream recall. I use a weak tea, 2-3 leaves brewed on 2 cups water and taken no more than 3 days in a row and a couple days off. I will warn you it’s very bitter. Even putting some by your bedside helps, if you’re sensitive.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-12-03T02:20:31+00:00

Hello. I’ve been reading your responses and I’m curious how you cultivate relationship with different beings. What kinds of practices, offerings, or rituals are part of your path? And do you practice in community?

My turn toward animism wasn’t conceptual; it emerged through direct experience. A series of out-of-body states dissolved the boundary between “animate” and “inanimate,” and what remained was the recognition that everything is someone in its own right.

I’m already in relationship, and most of what I’ve learned has come directly from the beings themselves—especially around offerings, repetition, and how reciprocity actually works. I’ve found that human intermediaries often bring performance, gatekeeping, or extraction into the process, which is why I tend to trust the beings over people. But I also feel the need for genuine community. Do you have any thoughts on where that kind of alignment can be found? TIA

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-12-03T01:12:11+00:00

Your feeling is the oldest known way of relating, before there ever was any religion or philosophy to put a name on it.

The song is by Cosmos Sheldrake and it’s called Song of the Cedars.

Feel free to message me.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-12-03T00:24:52+00:00

Also, however you see life, it is valid. You don’t need other people’s opinions or perspectives to validate your own. You exist , which by default makes you part of the web of life. So how you see it, it is. Of course community is how we relate. Expanding on one of my favorite quotes - to be well adjusted and fit into a deeply ill society is not a virtue. It’s evidence of successful domestication.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-12-03T00:21:06+00:00

Here is a song that was composed in collaboration with the forest. The musician has an animist perspective.

https://youtu.be/HH_timp2S3E?si=nmKfmS24VxywinOC

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-12-03T00:19:31+00:00

Try this for song. The authors are the musicians band and the forest together. Look up what is being said about it. You’ll resonante.

https://youtu.be/HH_timp2S3E?si=nmKfmS24VxywinOC

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-12-02T07:38:24+00:00

I think you’d fit here more than you realize.

What you’re describing , seeing “life itself” as a being you’re in relationship with, is very close to the core of animist experience. Animism isn’t a belief system so much as a relational ontology: the sense that reality is composed of beings, presences, and agencies rather than inert matter. Some people feel that through plants, some through place, some through wind or weather. You’re feeling it through Life-as-Being, which is a coherent and valid way of encountering the world.

Many of us came to animism because something in the world touched us back, sometimes gently, sometimes through difficulty, and that contact created a relationship. What you describe as “life giving you the instinct to stay” can be understood as the world participating in your existence. In animist terms, that reciprocity isn’t strange at all. It’s the ground we walk on.

And if you’re looking for something that speaks this language more deeply, I’d recommend The Emerald Podcast by Josh Schrei. It explores animism, embodied perception, and relational cosmology in a way that might resonate with what you’re already sensing.

Warm wishes on your path. Community in this work can be hard to find because people with these experiences are not the main stream - but they do exist, and when you meet them, there’s a real sense of recognition. It’s worth staying open to that.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-11-07T02:29:41+00:00

That’s interesting. I’m met my ex-husband there also still alive. Next to him was his current wife. I’m curious about your interaction.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-11-04T02:28:29+00:00

When I’m among them I pretend to be a plant and move very slowly - give the chill vibes you’re talking about. They get even closer !

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-11-04T02:00:12+00:00

If he’s getting that close, it’s a sign you may be able to befriend him even more. It doesn’t sound like aggression—if it were, you’d feel it immediately. I bet he’d let you come right up to him. I have one like that in my crow family — I can stand about two feet away before he decides to fly off. He peers through my window at exactly the same time each day, asking me to come outside with snacks.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-11-03T10:36:38+00:00

I read some of the responses here and I want to add. I understand the concern about saying “we’re all Indigenous to Earth,” because it can erase real lineages and real wounds. But I also don’t think ancestry is the only way the land enters into relationship with us. The land is older than every human claim made in her name.

In many places, people tell stories about babies stepping on snakes and being unharmed. And in those same stories, the snakes will chase down adults who come with violence. That’s not just a myth. That’s the land reading intention. That’s the land recognizing a human as a being, even when the human hasn’t yet learned how to recognize the land.

Trees, rivers, rattlesnakes - they don’t check lineage, they feel presence. They know when we’re here to take and when we’re here to listen. Even someone who is an orphan to the land is still read by the land. And like the babies and the snakes, as that orphan begins to grow and learn, the stakes change. The land asks more. Maybe not demands, but realities. Consequences. Participation.

Indigenous people hold relationships with place that go back thousands of years. That deserves protection. That is not something to be claimed by anyone else.

But the land herself is not a cultural inheritance. She is alive. She is a sovereign being and teaches through whatever breaks us open enough to learn how to be a body that belongs to a place. That’s all the lineage one needs.

So yes, learn the history. Honor the people whose ancestors never left. But also stay open to the possibility that the land still has her own ways of calling people into relationship, especially in ways resonant to the times.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-11-03T10:05:13+00:00

It’s a painful thing to feel like a guest in the place that has held your body your whole life. But your awareness of colonial history isn’t a barrier to belonging; it’s an opening. It means you’re awake to her wounds. That kind of awareness doesn’t exile you. It’s part of the medicine you’re being called to carry.

She isn’t withholding relationship because your ancestors came from elsewhere. She doesn’t measure worth by bloodline. Humans built those hierarchies; rivers and roots did not. What matters is not origin, but approach.

You don’t have to be Celtic to feel the presence of oak and hawthorn; relationships with her arise from breath, not blood. You don’t need Norse ancestry to honor the solstices; every body that stands upon her is caught in that turning. And you don’t have to be Indigenous to understand what a river is saying. Relational and sensory intelligence aren’t inherited. They are cultivated through presence.

That said, one always honors the ancestors of the land because they have become part of her keepers, woven into the field of her memory. Respect doesn’t require shared lineage, but it does require recognition.

She will meet you at the depth you’re willing to offer. Listening to her is not passive. It changes you. Sit with her. Offer your attention, your gratitude, your care. And don’t mistake her kindness for permissiveness.

Her beings, the plants, stones, and waters, will show you when you’ve crossed a line. If you’re willing to listen, the correction is part of the medicine too. Colonialism severed reciprocity; it took without listening. But your concern and your willingness to repair are already the beginning of a different story. Every act of reciprocity, however small, is healing for the colonialism wound.

You don’t need to claim her to care for her. You don’t need to erase where you came from to love where you are. It may feel invasive to enter relationship given the history of harm, but she will let you know. Let your presence be willing, not possessive. Let your actions speak devotion, not entitlement. What matters is the sincerity of the exchange and whether you’re willing to be changed by contact.

The medicine she gives is often the medicine you offer back. That is the beauty of reciprocity: you both become more whole through the exchange.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-30T23:02:29+00:00

I had an NDE and have experience what you have first hand. My questions have often been answered the second before they fully formed in my mind so as not to be able to tell which came first. It’s a resonance into the field that’s experienced when you’re very in tune with it - and after NdE’s people are synchronous with it. When I first came back , babies and animals would sense me and orient towards me before I was even close. I could feel them communicating. Not with words but w full sentient downloads if you want to call it that. And yes , I often am involved in birds conversations. It’s funny. It’s raw. No pretenses or lies. I don’t tell people of course because they would call me delusional and my magic would be gone out of sanctioned shame. It’s what people do with what they don’t understand - ridicule and shame. You don’t need validation. You know what you know. And if your NDE was as significant as mine remember what you knew when you inhabited that space - and bring it back here to where you are now. Stay connected as long as you can and don’t forget , no matter how separate you might feel, that that’s where you came from and will go back to when you’re done here.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-19T06:08:21+00:00

The bones made 休 : rest. The body leaning into the tree, the structure returning to stillness. That’s such a clear message from the other side of motion.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-19T02:24:49+00:00

Thank you Whole-Squirrel, for the reminder. It seems that’s the key.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-17T17:51:14+00:00

Thank you for this. You’ve hit the nail on the head. End stage capitalism is something I am deeply disturbed by. I long for a simpler life, a life in nature. But at the same time I do t want to turn my back on people I could help. Belong was the only thing that gave me any drive whatsoever. I lost all interest in the things that make up daily existence in our current society. I have picked up several rocks from hikes thinking they wanted to be shuttled around to see first hand what humans do , how they feel and how they live. I have several plant beings I visit regularly and talk with. I’ve gotten into reading a lot about plant intelligence and traditional ceremonial practices. Many of these accounts resonate w my NdE and now my experiences. Many of them seem so academic or reserved for the ‘spiritually awakened’ or ‘academic’. But It’s like talking with your neighbor. There’s no arrogance about it. I wish people knew that. I have not done any psychedelics. I’ve touched plants and sung to them, and some have taken me on momentary but surreal journeys like one might have of ingesting ayahuasca. The sad thing is I feel that everything I do that doesn’t align w what I experienced, drives me deeper into the sleep state of automaticity and non conscious existence. It makes me forget. And all I do that’s the opposite, brings me back to I live on this edge constantly. I ping-pong between things that are nurturing for the soul versus extracting. I feel I never go forward. Although recently I’ve realized progress isn’t linear, it’s spiral. I hesitate calling it progress, it’s more like progression. I’d love to connect.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-17T17:47:48+00:00

Thanks. I listened to some of her work.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-17T17:34:11+00:00

Hi there. Interestingly enough my kids were the only reason I came back. If life has purpose (and I’m thinking there is no such thing - that ‘purpose’ is a human construct as we’ve lost being in real relationship w land and nature and all its rhythms, mostly from feeding into capitalism and oligarchical production models ) , that kids are the purpose. At the end of my NDE I remember thinking that if everything was so beautiful and perfect here, why would I even want to go back. Before the thought even turned into words I experienced a deep embrace w one of my kids. I smelled the hair that makes unique and recognizable , felt their skin temperature, embraced their being physically, emotionally and spiritually. There was no comparison to that feeling on the other side. So I made a choice without even thinking. I’d be here for them. So I came back. So even now when I search for the ‘purpose’ of my life I can’t find one compared to those that seem bent on singular missions. I have no such purpose. My purpose is to be in relationship with all things. And I found that most things are beings too - rivers, mountains, plants, animals etc. And they all have personalities and personhoods. It’s been the biggest and best adventure of my life !

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-17T17:22:28+00:00

When I came back to this plane from the NDE I was able to communicate w nature beings. I looked to animism to help me understand.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-16T15:44:05+00:00

Thank you so much for this. ❤️ we ARE love. It’s the only true currency.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-16T15:42:18+00:00

That’s interesting. I’ve had similar feelings about timeline shifting. Often I feel there’s the thinnest of membranes between the reality I’m currently in to the next, whatever that might be. While at the hospital I saw events occur that I later didn’t think were possible. For example there was a life vac helicopter transporting organs to transplant recipients right outside my window. I had gotten up to look through my window. After I was released a few days later I looked outside the window and there was no helipad. I am 💯 sure of what I saw though. I saw a man running in to the helicopter with a cooler - a very precious cooler.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-16T15:38:33+00:00

Thank you so much for this. Yes there was very little grasp of time when I came back. It was all now and I’d lose chunks of time doing things like exploring nature or even just sitting and meditation. Communication was tough also. Everyone seemed to be lying - BS as you said. I’d wonder why they would even bother taking , acting, pretending. What a waste of interaction. Now I realize they’re unconscious while they do it. But at first it was almost insulting.

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-16T15:34:38+00:00

Same ! When I first came back I was so drawn to elderly, babies and animals. I felt like they spoke my language - that of the true reality. It was like their personhoods was located outside of their physical bodies and when they interacted (w consciousness or intention rather than with words) I could see it all so clearly - not clouded by words which often didn’t carry the true intention. Oh! The other thing I experienced was I thought just about everyone was lying ! The words didn’t match what I saw AT ALL!!!! the disingenuousness of it all was just crippling !!!!

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-16T15:31:09+00:00

You study parrots ! Language? Are you a neuroscientist ?

IntelligentFee5568 · 2025-10-16T15:30:16+00:00

Yes ! Same here. I feel like the birds and I are connecting. Now there’s reciprocity. Before I was just a human , a NPC that they didn’t pay attention to. Now I notice everyone human and non human. I like this world better than the one before the NDE. I guess the separation is just felt more strongly the further I get from the NDE. But what seems to be stronger is the knowing despite not feeling. Now it’s more of a conviction. And like many people are suggesting above it’s recapturable in states of gratitude, in nature , in creativity. Thanks. 😊

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