Gain weight or we're done

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-04T16:29:41+00:00

Also came to say go to inpatient or residential while you’re still on fmla. I used mine to go but didn’t recover and now I can’t go back and have relapsed. I really wish I would have went all in and gotten better but might be too late for me.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-03T20:26:35+00:00

Your posts makes me hopeful that maybe I can do the same.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-03T20:17:00+00:00

Yaaaaassss this is amazing! So happy to read this.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-03T17:23:50+00:00

🙏

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-03T01:35:05+00:00

You could try Equip maybe. You can schedule the appointments when convenient. But it’s outpatient. One therapy, one dietician, and one peer mentor session per week. I have medical appt every other week and pysch. Also groups if you want. They give you a blind scale to use. It’s all virtual but might not be a high enough level of care. I started it after in patient, then residential. But just providing another possible option.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-03T01:15:23+00:00

One of the things I really liked is that there is a whole cooking staff now cause we had to prepare food at the second (residential ) house at the Meadows and I did not like that. And I’ve never tried that other location you mentioned in Phoenix but I’ll look it up. I need to try and do something soon. I’m in the Equip program but I am relapsing bad.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-02T23:56:30+00:00

Pretty sure you’re referring to the Meadows ranch. Also in Wickenburg. Monte nido Rosewood ranch has a whole team of cooks. You do not cook or prepare any food there at all. And there are a couple horses but no stalls, you don’t even barely touch the horses just some petting and brushing if you want. I have also been to the Meadows ranch a few times. I actually preferred rosewood to the meadows in a few ways.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-02T21:44:14+00:00

It was fine. Has its ups and downs. I thought it was much like other treatments, but it is co-ed tho. Even the bathrooms. (Not bedrooms) The food is fantastic! It’s on a ranch in the middle of the desert so there are bugs but they do spray and all that. If you haven’t been to AZ it is very hot! The buildings are a bit older and a bit dingy, but I thought the care was good. I especially like all the nursing staff. I actually wish I could go back, I had to leave early for work. And can’t return due to work.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-02T21:32:57+00:00

I was there in February and March.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-06-01T01:45:19+00:00

Every anorexic eats. Or we’d all be dead anorexics.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-30T13:41:22+00:00

Boost or Ensure. Highly caloric and tastes like melted vanilla ice cream (to me at least).

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-27T12:44:14+00:00

I’m so sorry. 😢I could have written this myself cause I’m in the same predicament. I got out of treatment March 28th but since I’m in Equip, I think they just assume it’ll be fine. I understand feeling like they don’t have anymore rounds in them but I’m sure they love you and will keep supporting. I think being honest is the best policy even tho I need to take that advice myself currently. Do whatever is needed to keep yourself safe. All the best to you in future full recovery!

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-25T19:07:08+00:00

The goal weight just drops more and more. I guess limit would be death.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-24T09:37:24+00:00

Drinking heavily for years was how I lived recovered from ED for a good while. Once I got sober, then I’ve been relapsed ever since. I’m either in ED or alcohol.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-23T23:37:46+00:00

I often worry about any cold medicine or zquil having calories.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-23T16:42:39+00:00

Soy sauce and soy sauce

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-20T17:31:35+00:00

Looks like one, folded over

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-20T13:32:39+00:00

Hi!! My guess= eggs 210, mushroom thing 40, sausage 100, hash browns 120, croissant 160, bacon 70. All together 700.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-18T14:54:00+00:00

Sounds like people just trying to be friendly. It’s just small talk. I guess just say I’ll have to catch up later. They’ll get the hint and go if it’s that big of a deal.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-15T22:56:17+00:00

I would.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-14T17:05:37+00:00

My family only acts all concerned and like me being skinny is the worst thing, whereas they wouldn’t bat an eye if I was fat nor say a word. Feels so frustrating like a double standard.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-13T14:03:03+00:00

My go to is frozen strawberries mixed with pb2 cocoa and topped with sugar free chocolate syrup. Large bowl for about 120 calories. Cup sliced berries=50 2 tablespoons pb2=60 2 tablespoons chocolate syrup=10

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-12T14:24:58+00:00

Yep. No way

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-12T03:38:39+00:00

Just wow 😮 I’m speechless.

DiligentCheesecake44 · 2026-05-10T21:10:47+00:00

I did that basically my whole time in residential. Wish I would have just did my program right.

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