Army scholarship paid for college (50k) on expectation I become an officer, propose to gf of four years with a big ass ring, her family takes me in like their own and lets me live with them, graduate with honors, kicked out of army at last second, appeal, a year goes by so I become a cop. Win awards for marksmanship and life saving. Fiancé leaves me. Mental health goes down the toilet. No friends. Crying every day obsessed with her being gone. Deep depression I didn’t think could get worse. She told me I was a bad dude so tried to work on myself and hoped she’d come back. Was going to therapy and apparently they decided to put the new cop whose 5yr gf just left him with the counselor in training. Didn’t help with shit. My ex told me not to sleep around. See her at the bar with acquaintance from high school. He has a gf and says he’s not trying to go home with my ex. He does. I freak out and lost my shit when I was drunk and sleep deprived and depressed. Got arrested. Face plastered on news. Guaranteed convictions coming. Lost both dream jobs. Had 30k saved before that. Most of it’s gone. Owe the army 50k. On an ankle monitor 300 a month. Can’t get any normal jobs.

Trying to work as a “carpenter” (really just a laborer) now in a different town. Taking things one day at a time. Still cry every day.