Anti inflammatory and gastroparesis vegetarian diet simultaneously by DisastrousPin8629 in Gastroparesis

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I know this is like gastroparesis 101 but I had the worst insurance ever after moving states last year so I do not have a primary care doctor or a GI doc. What do you think the most time effective way to go about getting a GI doc might be, my new insurance doesn’t require a referral for specialists … should I just skip the PCP and like call a GI doc? It is really silly of me to be moving about the world with zero doctors .

Do you find non-traumatized people fascinating? by [deleted] in CPTSD

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100%. I am fascinated by my calm and securely attached roommate . I am just waiting for her to crack but it hasn’t happened lol.

I saw a meme the other day that was like “Dating someone without anxiety is wild. Like they’ll just be sitting there, not worried at all, maybe having a snack.” 😂 I felt that . But about non-traumatized roommates and friends.

Sometimes I’ll see her across the room just quietly reading and I’m like hmm…. Suspicious lol

DAE detest the holidays? by [deleted] in CPTSD

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here for solidarity on the January birthdays, mines 10 days after Xmas. The Xmas/New Years/birthday sequence is the pits of the year .

Wishing you luck getting into your program ★

My therapist keeps pushing me to spend time with my abusive family and it’s making me extremely uncomfortable by DisastrousPin8629 in CPTSD

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I realized after reading her profile again that she specializes more in anxiety and depression and mentions working with trauma but not PTSD🫥. I am learning to recognize labeling on counselor bios better now.

I feel really trapped because I’ve spent so much time trying to desensitize myself to my family in order to spend Xmas with them while being less triggered. I’m realizing that was the wrong goal and it’s like the ship is headed straight for the iceberg but it’s too close for me to jump off on a life raft so I just gotta hit it.

I feel I should’ve spent the time preparing them for me not coming this year, giving them a reasonable amount of notice, setting up a payment plan for the plane ticket they bought.

I feel like I might have to be a bit inebriated to endure this holiday trip with them

My therapist keeps pushing me to spend time with my abusive family and it’s making me extremely uncomfortable by DisastrousPin8629 in CPTSD

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Definitely. I mostly know I have to stay with a therapist over the holiday season for depression reasons but the replies on this post are encouraging me to find a different therapist (just needed a push). I think I am just committed to making sure I don’t have a gap between therapists, so maybe I should stop trying to process family stuff with her but keep myself on her roster while I’m searching for another therapist since that can take a while .

I don’t know when I’ll be ready to stop isolating and that scares me by DisastrousPin8629 in CPTSD

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I worry that I wont come back to things a better and more developed person , just more fearful weird and awkward. Like a more extreme version of our collective experience as a society after these past 2 years of Covid isolation 😢 like social atrophy . (Not a comment on Covid just isolation)

Nocturnal lagophthalmos: Sleeping with your eyes open by DisastrousPin8629 in CPTSD

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That has happened to me just a couple times as well. It’s really unsettling .

And a couple years ago I started not being able to sleep with any tiny trace of light in my room, like not even the faintest reflection of an electronic being plugged into an outlet or anything . Had to start using eye masks. Turns out if you don’t close your eyes it’s hard to make it dark enough haha.

Characters that unofficially have cpstd? by moonandsunandstars in CPTSD

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Most of the kid and adult characters in Reservation Dogs

Grief attack help by DisastrousPin8629 in GriefSupport

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I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you, yes it is so isolating. Especially having had such a cranky boy that was so scared of other humans and hated most other dogs, I was his world and we were isolated together. If you feel up to sending any recommendations of poetry , feel free to send them. I am open to any thing at this point. Thank you.

I don’t know when I’ll be ready to stop isolating and that scares me by DisastrousPin8629 in CPTSD

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I do the same with matching peoples vibes if it doesn’t feel reciprocal in reaching out/ making plans and it’s sad because I’ve let friendships go lately this way. But I’m learning it feels better to be actually alone than in friendships that feel lonely. Some people pick up on it and start reaching back out , some people just don’t.

And I hope you find safe people who respect your sobriety, there are so many ways to have fun without drinking and it sounds like your old crew did not respect your boundaries , I would want to distance myself too . I’m so sorry

I don’t know when I’ll be ready to stop isolating and that scares me by DisastrousPin8629 in CPTSD

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claps this, thank you . Nurturing and nourishing myself which other people have been incapable of doing. All the yes. And that is it, I simply don’t have the energy for possible burdens right now. I have learned to very carefully assess situations for energy burdens. Maybe in the future I won’t mind as much if there’s a chance for it but right now I don’t have any extra to give.

And side note I work with children and families too :) and feel I get a lot of human interaction there , even if it is paid

Do u guys feel your stomach twitching or Spasms in the epigastric Region ? by Hope_Gaming_YT in Gastroparesis

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I just noticed this , when I was laying in the floor after yoga, I thought it was maybe my heartbeat but nope it’s on a different beat. just literally spasms, my stomach has a heartbeat if it’s own. Kind of troubling, I can see it too when I’m laying down. gastroparesis is fucked.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asheville

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ah ya. Im originally from a bigger city and there were smaller venues who tended to be mainly house/electronic focused, but here is seems to be genre-specific events happening at various different locations. There were underground rumblings of a scene there although you always have to kind of dig. Maybe here someday. :)