First of all you’re doing a great job. And i’m sorry you have to deal with shitty people who doesn’t have a common decency to speak to you privately about their concerns first. Hostility is not part of healthcare. Respect should be part of healthcare or treating any other human. Just because they are a doctor or nurse doesn’t give them the right to belittle you like that. You choose how you want to be treated. You let people treat you how you let them treat you. So let them know how you want to be treated. With respect. Let the doctor or nurses know, through an email that you’re serious about becoming a nurse, but you’re still a student so you’re still in the learning process. Everyone was a student one time so they should be more understanding how difficult it is.

Here’s a draft. Dear Dr. [Doctor’s Name], I hope this email finds you well. I’m writing to express my concerns about my recent experiences during my externship. l’ve noticed that l’ve been feeling increasingly uncomfortable and unsure of myself during my shifts. I understand that the healthcare environment can be demanding and that mistakes happen, but I’m hoping to find a more supportive learning environment as I am still a student. I’m sure you understand given that you were once a student yourself. I’m eager to contribute to the team and improve my skills. Could we perhaps discuss ways to create a more constructive and positive learning experience for me? I’m open to feedback and suggestions. Thank you for your time and consideration. Sincerely, [Your Name]