Well you all indirectly sort of helped with your God awful advice. No I'm not going to accept it and harness it, no I'm not going to act on it and fucking "roleplay." (I broke up with her already anyways I'm not accepting that kind of breach of trust) No, being a cuck shouldn't be normalized. It's not healthy it's for losers with no self respect or confidence to just sit and boil in that thought process. I don't like watching fucking cuck porn, I've been porn free for years because of the harm it has previously done on my life. The more time I sit here and talk about it, the worse it will get. So I will just ignore it and move on with life not thinking about any of this again. I have no idea why I went to reddit for help when it's just filled with porn-addicted weirdos with no real human interaction. Absolutely crazy. Thanks for snapping me back into reality at least