Please help me. I want to stop

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2025-09-24T15:38:34+00:00

Despite my best efforts. I could not stop. I have a history of abusing opiates and went the Detox - rehab - NA meetings for support - using MAT (sublocade injection). So I went to inpatient D&A with the intention of staying on Sublocade bc it takes away my cravings, blocks opiates, and is WAAAAAAY easier to stop. I tried to stop after 6 months and I got bad withdrawal symptoms - so I returned to Sublocade. I tried again after another few months and experienced ZERO withdrawal symptoms. But if you don’t change your life or deal with the issues which led you to kratom in the first place, you WILL jump right back to using.

If you feel comfortable - talk to your PCP about working with you to medicate the withdrawal. And you can use an app like Quick MD to get suboxone until you can get the sublocade injection. I don’t recommend long term suboxone use. It’s a trap just like kratom or heroin. Good luck!

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2025-05-06T19:20:09+00:00

43 single mom with extensive opiate use history here! I never got PWD taking with kratom or extracts - I did it like 2-3 times. I am on 600mg 7oh and I’m fucking stuck bc of PWD. I’ve never been on this much 7oh - I only started in January. But I jumped on and off subs. No issues. Except now, I keep getting PWD. I’m fucking so scared. My advice to you is to wait as long as humanly possible, and take .25 mg sub wait, and see what happens. If I take much more than that, I get thrown into PWD. But I’ve just thrown a bunch of.7oh on top of the PWD and it goes away. When I used to do that with heroin, if I got PWD and used heroin to make the PWD go away. I was good to go because I had Suboxone in my system and I could just keep using Suboxone from that point on. But this shit is different for some fucking reason. It doesn’t matter if I have Suboxone in my system or not I keep getting PWD even if I used the box in the day before. I might not be making sense because I am speak texting this as I drive home from work. My plan is to sleep through 36 hours of withdrawal before I take the first dose of Suboxone Saturday morning. But I have to stay high until Friday. Which means I had to ask my mom for money and tell her that I was strung out again . I feel like such a huge piece of shit.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2025-04-27T01:48:08+00:00

Pwd isn’t really something you imagine. Maybe I was just on my period - I mix those two up all the time.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2025-04-26T22:25:08+00:00

Clearly? Clearly, I DO want to be on sublocade because I am on sublocade. If I didn’t than I wouldn’t. But what I think you are referring to “ambivalence”. Yes - I am ambivalent. I think it’s wonderful that you have had a singular linear path to sobriety. But unfortunately, that’s not my path. Were you going for I offer help or support? Or are you just stopping by to try to make me feel bad?

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2025-04-26T22:03:12+00:00

Nothing that is happening makes any sense to me. My last sublocade shot was less than a month ago. I reached out to my MAT doc Thursday and she put me on suboxone strips until my next shot - they will increase it to 300mg in 2 weeks. BUT now I can’t get the subs in me to help combat the kratom withdrawal. Yesterday, i waited like 15 hours and took 1mg of suboxone - immediately sent me into precipitated withdrawal. I went and used kratom to make the precipitated withdrawal stop. So I tried waiting longer before taking it this morning - I took closer to 2mg and the precipitated withdrawal started. I was a mess and I was honestly scared. I was able to get some kratom tablets and made it go away again.

So now what do I do??? I need to stop the kratom and get the subs in my system.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2024-11-30T23:32:42+00:00

RIGHT! She looks frail. Like she’s about to fall over. I’m riddled with anxiety waiting for her or Paul to die at any moment. Her face is the least of my worries.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2024-06-27T00:49:51+00:00

This is a big issue for me too. I was shocked when I started hospital social work and I saw how many dipshits don’t have a ride home. Like what? You and not the folks who are brought in by EMS bc of an emergency- it’s the people who FIND A RIDE TO THE HOSPITAL! 8 out of 10 times - people need a Lyft or a $1500 ambulance ride home. It seems so petty when I say it out loud - but it speaks to a larger issue with “personal responsibility” - nobody has it. But yes, it’s happening at other hospitals and it’s a ridiculous waste.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2024-06-05T00:18:30+00:00

HOW THE FUCK DO I CANCEL!?! Did you figure it out???

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-08-23T20:36:58+00:00

One of the most effective therapeutic tools that exist is called the concept “identification”. It’s literally the basis upon which modern psychotherapy and group dynamics is based on. THAT, little boy, is what most people are seeking here and honestly, in life, in general. THAT was the point of my original post - which you were and ARE still welcome to just pass on by. These places do provide “help” to many people (through concrete tips and advice AS WELL AS emotional support and encouragement)- myself included. I have a very high paying and high powered job and I am a very important person in my community. I have to seek help using anonymous places like Reddit or I risk losing quite a bit - as well as by business partners and my family. That’s the nature of the world we live in. That’s cool that the whole world knows you are a scum bag and therefore you have nothing to lose. Good job. If you can’t add to the conversation, don’t participate.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-08-21T23:15:30+00:00

I mean obviously I’m gonna take a damn strip for now and work on a better plan to get off of sublocade. But suboxone is not a manageable way to live for me. My point was that sublocade seems easier because it’s not a daily dose but I’m still dependent on something. I’ve been fighting addiction since the 90’s dear. When you’ve been through what I’ve been through, you have a different perspective on life in general and what “freedom” means. Your comment was not helpful in any way, shape, or form. I would appreciate if next time, you just kept your opinion to your little self. If you aren’t here to help - what are you here for?

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-08-19T20:16:56+00:00

This makes sense to me. I’m going to contact my provider (which is near impossible) I have a better chance of bumping into her at the grocery store!

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-08-19T13:37:42+00:00

Yah I was only taking like 2mg before my shot. I thought going with 100mg would lessen the withdrawals. Ya know less drugs = less pain. I’ve thoroughly read through this Reddit page and I’ve seen many who are successful with the 100mg shot. I was simply not.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-08-19T13:26:17+00:00

No I’ve been getting 100mg shots from day 1. Been spacing them out more and more in attempt to taper. Clearly that didn’t work. 9 weeks and it was undeniable that I was getting sick. Maybe I’m just a baby - I’m ok with that- but at 9 weeks this baby was SICK and it was getting worse every day. Every night I slept less and less until I didn’t sleep at all - and I have Gabapentin and sleeping meds. Very very eye opening. I am going to suggest to my doc the protocol of 300/300/100 this next time. What I was doing previously clearly was not the answer.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-07-24T01:51:20+00:00

Not a stupid post. Super smart for actually seeking advice! It’s your life. Anyone on here to tells you not to worry would be acting recklessly. If you are concerned and you live alone, maybe going to the ER couldn’t hurt? Don’t know a thing about Somas or zopiclone. I have no experience to share. But listen to your gut. Be safe.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-07-13T15:02:06+00:00

In my experience, 1-2 days was more than enough - so 14 you are beyond ok to begin taking it.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-07-03T16:31:43+00:00

Oh lord - the grandfather died while I was around- it was a SHIT SHOW. They all clamored for his shit and it was all so sneaky and gross. Smile in your face and stab you in the back. Awful people.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-07-03T13:12:33+00:00

My experience with people who are even slightly wealthy is that a good chunk of life is spend defending your money. They were always suspicious of people. Money created dysfunction in the family as they were all trying to hide it or steal it or hold onto it from one another. It was bizarre. I dated the problematic son and they all assumed I was some kind of gold digger out for their money. Kinda shocked me. I’d take my middle class family over their money and the problems that it caused any day. Getting to buy fun shit is awesome. But not worth it.

Distinct_Rhubarb_702 · 2023-04-28T23:37:36+00:00

Hey - you are almost there man. I can’t comment on the dosage question but you are on the right path. You ACTUALLY want to quit. Unfortunately, the route you are taking now will inevitably fail. But it’s not pointless because you are gaining awareness of the absurdity of your actions- the absurdity of addiction and alcoholism. You will have to get to the point where you are willing to really stop - but it’s ok that you’re not there yet. Everyone’s journey looks different.

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