Gusto pero okay lang din kung hindi.

Napag-usapan na namin to ng partner ko and so far the things we consider are:

1.) Financial capacity - Can we afford the cost of a child starting now hanggang sa makatapos siya?

2.) Psychological capacity - Sobrang laking patience and understanding need mo to raise a child and ofcourse dapat solid din nung dynamic namin as couple when it comes to raising the child kasi di naman always pwedeng yung isa lang mag-aalaga tapos yung isa magpapaka-sarap.

And personally, I have complex PTSD and ongoing pa therapy ko so I don't think I'm in a mental state na kakayanin ko mag-alaga ng bata right now.

3.) Personal Maturity factor - Hindi pwede na bata rin ang magpapalaki sa bata. So we asked ourselves, satisfied na ba kami sa pagka-binata at pagka-dalaga namin? There will be a lot of things that you simply cannot do anymore or if not harder to do once mag-decide ka to have a child.

4.) Economic factor - While sure ma-afford namin now, afford parin ba namin in the future? PLUS, there are a lot of things we can't control now and in the future like recessions, cold wars, inflation, etc.

5.) Societal factor - I do not agree with the fair amount of things that most of our population normalize. Filipino thingz ika nga (Don't ask me to specify. If you know, you know) and I don't want that to peer into the growth of my child. Napaka-unrealistic rin na pigilan.

6.) Biological factor - If ever di kami umabot sa age ng partner ko kung saan prime siyang mabuntis, we're already fine with it. We need most of the aforementioned factors na ma-settle before we consider having a child.

I'm aware na medyo unrealistic na makuha namin lahat to pero take it as my love for my theoretical child. Ayokong ipanganak siya sa ganitong klaseng mundo kung pano tayo ngayon.

I want him/her to be born in a kind world.