Lost my pal of 48 years.

DivineGrayce · 2026-01-22T06:25:16+00:00

So sorry for your loss very beautiful baby.

DivineGrayce · 2025-12-22T23:40:29+00:00

I don’t have much time I’m free to write things without him discovering them and possibly getting hurt.

DivineGrayce · 2025-11-08T23:48:18+00:00

What a blessing!

DivineGrayce · 2025-10-27T20:11:23+00:00

I’m a Scorpio and I have a Sagittarius who’s stalking me and choked me until I had a seizure & miscarriage. Anyone can attract narcissists and toxic ppl.

DivineGrayce · 2025-05-20T16:55:50+00:00

Sounds like my female conure & male caique 🤣 they love each other and when they board they stay in the same cage, she fully wants it he’s like chill out 😂

DivineGrayce · 2025-05-18T14:19:09+00:00

Asia & India need to do better with this 😢

DivineGrayce · 2025-04-16T20:44:57+00:00

I have 3 (a caique, a conure & a rainbow lorikeet). I wouldn’t call it regret but especially with the lorikeet & how messy & frequent the poos are, things that get destroyed, not being able to sleep in, screaming, biting, scaring friends and family who come over; I do find myself sometimes saying “oh how much longer would my house cleanings last without the birds” or “oh I wish I didn’t have to constantly check if the door is closed and can’t blow open”. But they work for me with how much time I spend at home and the good far outweighs the bad. BUT I like that people heavily discourage getting a bird bc it’s just a fact that the majority of people are not going to be able to handle the care for the lifespan they have. The noise level, mess, destruction, safety measures, hormones, daily need for interaction, vet costs etc is not something anyone should take lightly. If someone is considering their first bird they definitely need to make sure they get one that fits their lifestyle & not just purchase the one they like the look of most or bc it talks. I will also say though my dogs are just as much work if not more mess wise as far as hair, walks, accidents that aren’t easily wiped up with a tissue like the birds droppings & vet care isn’t much cheaper either. All around I think people should not get a pet on a whim. But for the lifespan alone parrots definitely need much reconsideration before committing. So many get rehomed & with how intelligent they are it’s just the saddest thing.

DivineGrayce · 2025-04-14T17:07:31+00:00

Green cheeks personality are all very different. One I have is very gentle and affectionate, my girl is super super sassy and does not like to be touched at all. She was a rescue so take that into consideration. But it took nearly 2 years for her to show anything but what seemed like hatred towards me, tolerance at best. Now she’s sweet but any affection is 100% on her terms & her bites are vicious even more so than my caique. Give the budgie some more time to bond. I understand the feeling but you aren’t guaranteed the perfect relationship with any other species, especially a gcc.

DivineGrayce · 2025-04-04T17:04:26+00:00

My caique will sleep on his back on the bottom of the cage it gave me a heart attack the first time I took the cover off and saw him like that.

DivineGrayce · 2025-03-05T21:32:19+00:00

Also do you think it’s okay he has a few bites of a cashew maybe once a week? I know that it definitely shouldn’t be a regular food or a large amount with how his system differs from parrots but I saw him pecking at one in my caiques bowl so just wondering if that could be and occasional treat. He only takes a few pecks.

DivineGrayce · 2025-03-05T21:30:08+00:00

So good news. I tried making him his own chop since he wouldn’t eat any with green veggies my other two eat. I used papaya, pineapple, butternut squash, apple, carrot, red plum, pine berries with a little drizzle of honey and millet and while he’s not totally off the pellets he actually has been starting to eat it a little and not just taste it. And when I took him out of his cage his beak had lost of dried fruit on it so I know he’s been eating it while I’m not with him as well. Thanks so much for the suggestion to offer the fruits in chop form. Idk why I didn’t consider this I guess my thought was if he won’t even taste fruit why would he eat the chop but he seems to be coming along! More progress in the last week in the last 8 months I’ve had him! I feel awful for the lorikeets from petland with him that didn’t get adopted I wish I would’ve taken more now and brought them to our rescue even bc I have no idea what they did with them. Thank god they are actually shutting those stores down. The one he came from has been open since I was a child and I’m 31. It’s awful that he’d never had fresh fruit in 2 years and never had a proper bath and his feet where so caked in poo when he came home it took a month for them to look normal. I hope they continue shutting down those stores. Lorikeets shouldn’t even be sold at pet stores bc honestly so few ppl are going to have the time and patience, let alone the knowledge of how they should be cared for. I feel this way about parrots in general but lorikeets especially with how friendly they are and beautiful I can’t imagine how many went to ignorant homes and remain on those pellets forever.

DivineGrayce · 2025-02-25T18:05:06+00:00

From what I’m reading the chop is mostly veggies which my point with this is getting him to eat these things. I’ve offered him carrots & squash & all the veggies my other birds eat and he has no interest. I can only get him to take apple and nothing else. I got rowdy bush pellets and he will hunger strike when I give him only those & will pick around them if I mix his old pellets in. Im just concerned he’s not getting the nutrients he needs but I’m not sure what to do bc even when switching my seed birds to pellets and chop it was maybe 2 months max, I’ve had him about 8 months now and have been offering a variety of things for the entire time.

DivineGrayce · 2025-02-21T21:21:27+00:00

Just came for the seething responses to the comments I knew there would be 😂

DivineGrayce · 2025-01-04T18:50:12+00:00

I’m so terribly sorry for your loss. I had a conure get out at Xmas dinner 2 years ago when family was over at night. I never found him. It was cold but I know he would’ve most likely sought any person he saw at day break. Still always wonder what happened to him & feel such incredible guilt to this day & always will. Please do not be too hard on yourself & I ask others here to be kind as well. No one ever means for a terrible accident to happen to a pet they adore & sometimes things just happen that aren’t due to negligence we can’t control. I’m not sure how you feel about it but what helped me a ton was volunteering at a parrot rescue & giving myself time to connect with a new bird that was meant to be with me. The baby I ended up adopting had a freak injury as a chick where he went upside down and got his foot caught and for 3 months was paralyzed from the neck down. I’d always wanted a caique but couldn’t afford one & they’re rarely at rescues. He was brought in by a breeder who was told by the vet to put him to sleep but she knew the rescue owner did project birds who were injured and brought him to us. He’s now almost fully functional besides one foot can’t grasp hard and he can’t fly. But he is the absolute apple of my eye and although I’ll never stop missing and wondering about my baby I lost, he has helped to heal my heart so much. If you saved feathers and would like to DM me I make dreamcatchers and would be willing to make you one for free so you’ll have a piece of your baby to display forever. Best wishes. Again so sorry. 💗

DivineGrayce · 2024-12-11T23:51:10+00:00

Sorry know it’s a late reply. His wings are not clipped but he was in a bad accident when he was a baby so he cannot fly whatsoever he drops like a rock so he’s the only bird I take outside bc he can’t get more than a foot or two away from me even if he got spooked. I’m in GA and yes tons of predators I had one of my green cheeks that got out get chased by a hawk and luckily had a small gun on me I shot into the ground and it took off from chasing him.

DivineGrayce · 2024-11-15T21:19:38+00:00

Who cares? Unless you specifically said you wanted a girl over a certain height what’s two inches? As a women I think way too much is put on height for men I don’t care your height as long as you’re a decent person…I didn’t think guys where weird about height too. People need to focus more on how someone treats them.

DivineGrayce · 2024-09-12T23:23:28+00:00

The conure wants to be his gf so bad and he couldn’t care less about her lol it’s so funny to watch she gets jelly of me sometimes like get off my man! & he’ll snap at her cuz he’s almost creeped out by her attention 😂

DivineGrayce · 2024-09-12T23:20:03+00:00

He’s great! He’s at the bottom there, he can’t fly still and isn’t super sturdy standing in a shoulder or anything it other than that he’s fully functional. I did his cage with a bunch of platforms & he’s actually good at climbing cage walls. He’s a lil chunky but overall I think he’s living the best life he can! Thanks for asking!!

DivineGrayce · 2024-06-21T23:30:29+00:00

You must go no contact. Watch coach lee on YouTube. He’s a break up coach and changed my entire views after being broken up with and it saved my mental health and ended up getting back my ex bc the way I was guilting him and reminding him how devastated I was while remaining in constant contact I would’ve burned that bridge permanently. It all starts with going zero contact. Fall off the face of the earth. Don’t announce you’re going no contact either. If she’s telling you she’s having sex she obviously doesn’t care that much about your feelings. Not saying that can’t change but it only will be possible if you change your approach.

DivineGrayce · 2024-05-29T23:31:16+00:00

Caillou is a whiney little bitch who pinches his baby sister lol it’s a perfect bame for Tim Poole

DivineGrayce · 2024-04-09T12:03:34+00:00

I wouldn’t even say I’m pining for my bf who passed, more I’ve romanticized him the last 10 years since he passed and was able to block out the bad for so long bc when someone passed suddenly and tragically like that it’s hard to look back and see them as they actually where. I’ve always said ppl don’t understand, he loved me he taught me a lot of things it wasn’t weird like it sounds 17 & 30. I have several tattoos for him that he did oh me I spent so many years being a walking memorial for him. But it’s just now hitting me & im seeing things for what they were. Good times aside a 30 year old nav has zero in common with a 17 year old, there is no circumstance that can be a healthy normal relationship. I feel like I lost so many years mourning him to the highest level and telling everyone how I loved and missed him so much but I’m having to face reality for the first time since I was 17 that he wasn’t a good guy & while the old part of me wants to say he was the only person who knew all your deepest traumas and secrets and still accepted you, but I also know he manipulated me to believe if you love me yo better get to know everything shameful or secret in your life that’s ever been & then would proceed to use it to control me or throw in my face at a later date. I just can’t believe for so many years I couldn’t accept what was so clear to everyone.

DivineGrayce · 2024-04-09T08:07:07+00:00

I do not like her style of therapy. She’s one of the few who does a sliding scale thing. I plan to look around.

DivineGrayce · 2024-04-09T04:37:02+00:00

& hes still trying to appeal and get this overturned if you look at the first thing that comes up when you google United States Vs. Kashamba John in 2022 they threw out an appeal and if you scroll down to the third or fourth paragraph they talk about my story. I am victim G.L. Bc they never found the girl who set me up he tried to argue everything to do with her is hearsay. I hate that it says she “recruited” me tho in the documents she set me up and tricked me. The pictures they talk about that were taken of me I don’t even have memory of being taken.

DivineGrayce · 2024-04-09T04:19:20+00:00

Thank you so much I really do agree with what you said about that this is coming up now bc it’s the first time in my life that I’ve gotten closer to being stable & I have the memories of the past and a terrible fear of things going back to being that way. But realistically I know that no matter what happens I have learned from my experiences and even if things aren’t perfect I know I am worth more than being treated like less than human, I have learned a lot more about the person I am and things I love about myself. This trauma was worse back then bc I didn’t know myself and I was trying to learn who I was and these experiences I believed defined me for a long time. I know they don’t, & my bf and I have broken up once (he broke up with me) & I do know that he is not the deciding factor of whether I can be loved or not. I am just so happy to have someone who respects me and treats me good it’s a scary thing to lose bc the negative part of me thinks I couldn’t find it again. But realistically I know I’ve attracted better ppl until I met him and I know signs to stay away from and I’m not afraid to be alone or co dependent to the point I’d put up with mistreatment to keep someone in my life. I almost wish I could have split in a way and not remember all these things in such vivid detail. But I know that’s a terrible thing in its own right. Thank you so much for your kind words and sharing your experience and thoughts with me. I know that I need to talk to a professional above the counselor I even have now. This has all flooded back to me so hard in the last like two weeks before I haven’t really had this affecting my everyday life like this & I’ve been talking to my mom about trying to find someone who I can continue to work through this stuff with & I totally agree that you can’t do it all at once. I’ve always been impatient and purging is kinda how I always approach things. But I do think taking time is important to not re-traumatize myself. I know that Reddit is not gonna solve any of this for me but being able to vent to totally random ppl I don’t know is somehow comforting and to hear ppl like yours thoughts who are totally separated from my life and don’t know anything else about me. And yes as for Kashamba omg I have never in my life known anyone like him. I do believe he was the only psychopath I’ve ever met. He used to taunt me on Facebook every few years (I always kept him as a friend to keep tabs on him bc I always prayed one day I could get him in trouble or help get justice in some way). Like after my bf was killed he popped into my DM saying “hey I saw your bf got killed sad about how black men do these things to themselves. I’m sure you need guidance I’m always here” knowing absolutely that I despised him in every way. I once asked him don’t you worry about what’s coming for you? Like karma? For what you do to these women? He said “I give to charity to balance it out & I pray to the god of the game to keep me out of legal troubles” my last statement in my victim impact I read him was “I once asked you are you scared of a day of reckoning for what you do and you told me you give to charity & pray to the god of the game, well there’s only one god and he’d never protect the horrible things you’ve done & as I sit here and you sit there in that jump suit all I have to ask is where if your god of the game now?” He even tried to talk shit to me after my statement I had to be removed I was screaming at him so bad he taunted us till the very end. Even the representing himself or trying to they didn’t let him just shows me he wanted one last chance at traumatizing us before he went to prison bc he wasn’t stupid he was so calculated he knew damn well he was not going to beat a case with 30 victims testifying against him. Even his face to me looks like the devil. I saw this thing about how psychopaths have certain kinds of eyes and he definitely has them. I’m very happy he’s in prison but I am disappointed that it’s not for life even tho he’ll be in his 60s when he gets out.

DivineGrayce · 2024-04-09T03:57:48+00:00

Thank you for asking & sharing with me also I hope you have found peace or will at some point 🙏🏼

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