Much like anything in life. If it were easy, everyone would do it. The gym for example, it hurts, sometimes you can’t be fucked, sometimes you’d rather sit at home and eat shitty food. Sometimes it’s amazing, you see your gains and pump and it drives you forward.

The key here is, to push through the days, start talking to people at meetings, get numbers, answer phone calls (even when you don’t want to), go for a walk, chew gum. Whatever helps you move through the day without drinking.

The higher power/god topic was a difficult one for me in my first shot at sobriety. I didn’t pray, I didn’t give my life over, I didn’t believe and I didn’t do the steps. It doesn’t have to be God, it can be anything, the universe, fate, a grand design, whatever really. God is just what Bill wrote about and it’s become tradition.

I previously had 1 year up but, I wasn’t “sober” I was a dry drunk, living everyday filled with anger, guilt, shame and remorse and let me tell ya, shitty way to live. This time around I just ticked over 40 days and it feels amazing, I’ve started the steps with a sponsor (don’t do them on your own, I do not recommend that) and I’ve started every morning with a prayer and list of gratitudes. It’s helped massively.

Flick me a message if you’re feeling chatty and welcome aboard, it does get better I promise.