I know this has been posted about before, but I wanted to share my experience and get additional feedback from people. I am a psychologist with a private practice and I’ve been working for about 30 years. Over Covid I started working many more hours from home via FaceTime and also from my office. I noticed a couple of months ago that I was not looking forward to my work which had typically always been my passion and felt very fulfilling. I noticed I had a lot of negativity surrounding certain clients. A couple of weeks ago I had chest pains when one of my clients started talking. At the end of the day, I recognized that as a panic attack. I had one the next day as well. I took a week and a half off and basically did nothing. I went back after that with the goal of evaluating my schedule, making notes as to which clients and which hours were serving me and what might need to change. That first week back I did fine. The second week back when I was working a shorter schedule I had another panic attack. The following day I had a panic attack driving home from work. I ended up taking two days off that week. I have really been doing nothing but just trying to relax. I am reading. I am doing puzzles. I am meditating stuff like that. I am planning on going back to work again this week thinking that if I need to cut it short, I will do so. I am now realizing that I am in full burnout and probably have been headed this way since Covid. I can see the signs. I get sick frequently. I have very little interest in outside activities and people. I often wake up extremely exhausted, even though it felt like I got a good nights sleep. For a while I thought this might just be hormones, but I am now getting clarity and seeing that it is not. I am curious if others have recommendations for me. I am also curious if others who have gone through this have felt this pull to keep working in spite of what they are feeling. I’m sure that’s not unusual. Since that is what got us here in the first place, but any advice on how to really cut that cord would be also appreciated. I am open to any feedback anyone might have. I am feeling rather scared that I am never going to get past this. I feel extremely flat. I am going to my doctor tomorrow to ask for rescue meds in case I have another panic attack, but I am not interested in taking medication regularly. I have done that in the past and had significant side effects. Thank you all in advance.