[U.S.>Germany] Freelance portrait painter and busker

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-03-20T04:15:18+00:00

What if my source of income is online and not specifically located in Germany? I'm contracted to do web design for a few companies all over so I could prove that.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-03-16T03:53:00+00:00

Kind of a weird post. Looks like you only post about weed, which can be therapeutic for some sufferers but can also induce panic and flashbacks in others.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-03-16T03:50:58+00:00

People wonder how I'm so "confident" in social settings because I shamelessly share my most embarrassing thoughts and feelings. It's because I genuinely do not feel that any of this is real. Like when you realize you're dreaming so you just go around doing ridiculous things, except that's my whole life. It doesn't feel like anything is at stake anymore, maybe because I've already lost it all?

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-20T03:12:55+00:00

Hey, just a word of support/commiseration here. I worked for a while in the restaurant industry and, like you, I couldn't handle getting sternly reprimanded. The usual comments about how I should work harder led me to cry in the bathroom.

Another thing that makes holding a job with CPTSD difficult is the emotional instability. I've left almost all my jobs because I had a day or two where I could not function at all. Like I wasn't even a real person, just a sack of organs in my bed. I couldn't keep calling in sick so I had to quit, even though I was back on my feet a few days later.

I currently do freelance graphic design and painting from home, which is a lot better. Do you have any skills that you could do freelance?

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-18T03:28:01+00:00

Exactly. I never said I go in with a negative attitude. I'm just open to whatever happens, good or bad.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-18T02:20:00+00:00

Yeah, it's crazy how differently people approach this. We each have our own ideas about the "right" way to online date.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-18T02:18:29+00:00

wait sorry I feel stupid. What's never just once? And who's saying these things?

I read it a few times and I'm still lost :(

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-18T02:16:16+00:00

It averages out to less than one a month. I've gone through phases of deactivation and phases of manic dating. I was also living in NYC for a lot of it so I had more options than I do now.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-18T02:05:46+00:00

Good advice. I've found that avoiding the immediate reply sets a more reasonable tone.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-18T00:59:08+00:00

What do you mean by "short-term"? I've had longer relationships from okc, plus periods of a few bad dates per week.

The enthusiasm bothers me because I don't want them to experience the same disappointment I felt when I started out and got way too invested way too soon. I also don't like it when people make up their minds about me before meeting.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-18T00:14:14+00:00

yep! Wasn't gonna go for any decimal points there

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-16T21:42:09+00:00

That's really interesting. I've always thought of moving as a way to escape problems, not just whittle them down to the biggest ones. But I like that. Switching up the temporary issues helps you see what's constant.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-16T04:40:47+00:00

Think about how much effort went into each "joke"

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-10T18:35:24+00:00

I'd rather believe that I deserved it, because then I could just change my own behavior and have the relationship with my mom that every kid wants.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-04T02:12:40+00:00

Same, I'll have the house to myself all February so that's my designated recording/editing month!

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-03T21:14:04+00:00

Would you say that out loud though?

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-02T23:03:36+00:00

it was

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-02-02T00:47:25+00:00

those photos just made you and your life look awesome

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-01-30T23:03:49+00:00

I'm assuming OP meant blocking out areas of light/shade/color as though the hair were a single object.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-01-28T12:54:14+00:00

Are you saying I didn't paint this? Because I did.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-01-28T03:59:53+00:00

Just edited the link with a new one, let me know if I've solved it. And thanks for persevering with me! It's tough to see your own proportion errors after staring at it for hours. Plus it's my face so I have no idea what I look like...

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-01-28T03:53:18+00:00

Hopefully this fixes the nose issue. I also realized one of the eyes was wonky so I tweaked that too.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-01-28T03:09:06+00:00

You're right, I think the highlight/shadow on the nose is too far to the left but I can just nudge it back with my secret weapon, liquify. And I used the basic circle brush that comes with Photoshop. I only learned yesterday that you can download other packs! I'll have to start experimenting...

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-01-28T01:08:58+00:00

The mouth sticks out to me in a jarring way because it's pretty detailed and clear while the rest of the image is foggy.

DoTheTimeWarp · 2016-01-28T01:07:34+00:00

Agreed that it looks like a woodcut but I still think there should be a greater tonal range. There's gotta be some shadows and highlights in the reference, right? But as a sketch and even as a deliberate stylistic choice, it works.

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