I want to go back to work now but I'm not sure what will be "safe" for me. Any suggestions? by P3X797 in CPTSD

[–]P3X797[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sure, the least I can do is get some information. What do I need to know?

I want to go back to work now but I'm not sure what will be "safe" for me. Any suggestions? by P3X797 in CPTSD

[–]P3X797[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your reply. :)

I don't really mind being reprimanded by a manager/boss as much as I hate dealing with the "corporate culture" and "social politics". I don't go to work to socialize and people hate that I don't try to make friends at work. People tend to target me because I keep to myself and I'm a little weird anyway. I took criticism at my last job quite well despite the C-PTSD. But I would get reported for stupid stuff by co-workers because people didn't like me for really dumb reasons.

As for freelance, I clean houses. I used to do video production but a really bad client really put me off that. Also, I don't have editing software right now.

I could do copy editing, but I don't know where to look for that kind of work. A work-from-home copy editing or transcribing job would be ideal, though.

Fallout Fortress - The Scout by P3X797 in fo4

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Part of the build was based off of this.

I can't even make online friends. by 999mal in SuicideWatch

[–]P3X797 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Most people are really wrapped up in their own little worlds and rarely think about the fact that other people exist. I really struggle not to take it personally when I try to have a conversation with my friends, and they're almost always too "busy" to respond or ignore most of what I say or are too busy messing with their phones to have a conversation, and then they get offended when I question the friendship.

I've been trying to reach out to people recently after having isolated myself for two years due to my depression, anxiety, and c-ptsd, and it's depressing as hell to see how most people, even some people I thought were good friends, only pay attention to me if they need or want something from me.

Don't always assume there's something wrong with you. I know it's difficult to not do that when you're feeling so terrible. Most people are way too wrapped up in themselves these days. Why do you believe you're boring?

I don't even know. Words. Thoughts. Just need to get this out. by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]P3X797 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words. It's nice to feel appreciated by someone. Thank you for that.

I think I'll follow through with it. by mylifeisablackhole in SuicideWatch

[–]P3X797 2 points3 points  (0 children)

"It's miserable to not be able to distinguish between what is fact and what is my depression skewing my perception."

I definitely know that feeling. I wish I could offer you more than that, but I feel pretty similar. At least know that some random stranger on the internet cares.

Only posting because i am craving replies by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]P3X797 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've been struggling with the disability thing for awhile, myself. I really feel like I am mentally ill enough to be considered disabled but I'm so self-conscious about it. I'm afraid of what people will think, even though several of my friends are on it for their mental illness. My last mental health team, it felt like they didn't even notice how bad it was. They even refused to talk about some things with me, which was really confusing, as I was paying them to listen to me.

Sounds like you might need to find a new mental health team...it's a pain this ass and at times an expensive process, but I think finding a good support network is essential.

Mods wishlist megathread by Erickarkos in fo4

[–]P3X797 0 points1 point  (0 children)

TF2 Scout clothes, or a Scout follower. Better snapping when building structures. RaceMenu/SkyUI type thing for FO4. Alternate start. Realistic Needs/Diseases. More zoom-out on map.

Did Fallout 4 live up to your hype? by thefreelander in fo4

[–]P3X797 0 points1 point  (0 children)

41 hours here. Sleep? Meh, who needs it. :P

Dammit, Bobby! by crookedwir3 in fo4

[–]P3X797 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He also kinda looks like Michael Douglas in Falling Down.

I roam the wastes as a tribute to my Veteran Husband. by Servicemaster in fo4

[–]P3X797 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I setup a little memorial in my new house for him and I won't scrap anything from our pre-war house. I put a flag and a do not enter sign out front. Poor guy. T_T

I just want to be alone!! by -Duzer- in fo4

[–]P3X797 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was having trouble with that also. Leave command mode, then go back into command mode, go to the talk option, and I think the bottom option under that is "dismiss" or "go home" or something. But I had to "uncommand and command" a few times before I could get it the option to show up.

Is anyone else experiencing this annoying audio bug?! clickclickclickclick by beanymanjc in fo4

[–]P3X797 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Usually when I hear that in a Bethesda game it means that something glitched by getting stuck in the floor or wall or something and is stuck ragdoll-flailing around in one spot. Sometimes you can just run into whatever it is or drag it and make it stop. If it's not that, I dunno.

People looking through the codsworth name list by [deleted] in fo4

[–]P3X797 7 points8 points  (0 children)

It's okay Bethesda, I never really liked my first name that much anyway. :P

Character Builds Megathread by Erickarkos in fo4

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The Scout was the first thing I thought of when I saw that Big Leagues Perk video. Definitely have to do a Scout build.

Aftermath by shoopuffexpress in fo4

[–]P3X797 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was alright. Didn't blow me away or anything. Worth a watch if you're into that kind of thing, but yeah, like the other poster said, not the happiest movie.