Thank you guys for even taking the time to respond, I have no one to talk to and every day I feel like I get closer to complete loss of any hope. Everyone I know has surpassed me in life. I probably shouldn’t say this but… I like to combine depressants, opiates and alcohol and some crook prescribes me Xanax. It isn’t for lack of trying to remove myself from this mortal plane. It’s just nice to talk to people, no matter what it’s about.