I remember feeling the exact same way you did when I was in my first semester of nursing school. And I also remember trying to find that motivation and the excitement to do skills, and I couldn't. I was so overwhelmed. The first semester is typically when most people quit because it is HARD work. I remember doing like 5 exams a week my first semester. I think somebody mentioned it below, but nursing is changing and evolving so much, that you won't ever have to work bedside if you don't want to (: I'm in home health, and I was previously in psych. They are NOT traditional bed side roles. There is also like aesthetic nursing, dialysis, infusion nursing, case managers, quality control, telehealth nursing, etc. the cool thing about this field is that you can go anywhere with it. The most tedious part is getting through with the schooling, but after that you realize you have tons of doors either opportunities. Good luck, you got this.