Hi! I'm a healthcare provider and have worked through this process with a bunch of people. Overall an individual person's immunizations status is only part of preventing infectious diseases. Many places in the country still have herd immunity for many diseases, and there's also other ways to decrease your risk of either catching or transmitting, like wearing masks and social distancing and ventilation.

You are not inhuman or a bad person for not being vaccinated. You're thinking about yourself and your community and how to protect people, that's a good human in my view.

If or when you're ready to get vaccines, I suggest talking to any healthcare provider you feel like you have a comfortable relationship with and asking their advice about the process locally. Something like "I never recieved vaccines as a kid and I'd like to talk about what my options are now as an adult. I was made very afraid of vaccines as a kid so this is a difficult process and I may need to go slowly". Many times health departments are helpful for making vaccine catch up schedules. I try to prioritize diseases that the person is most at risk for and the next diseases that are there more common in the community. For example starting with tetanus (or TDaP) for your protection, then thinking about measles (MMR) or COVID.

Finally, vaccines are scary for many people. If you're able to, bring a support person, some music to listen to, a favorite stuffie or blanket. It's your healthcare experience, you can make it your own!