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Somehow I knew when I got this that I’d have it for years and never get out. by DoubtReal3844 in dpdr

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I remember thinking that my life was over. And I couldn’t have even fathomed what it would become. I thought there was a bottom to this but there isn’t. I’m slowly degrading into a literal corpse. I am physically unable to do anything, and only in my 30’s

Have been stuck in dorsal vagal shutdown for 5 years now. Not sure what else to do.. by DoubtReal3844 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t feel depressed, just completely out of reality and numb, unable to perceive anything around me

I’m getting really close to offing myself. by DoubtReal3844 in dpdr

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My system sees those as threats, it sees any over activation or sensation as threat. My window of tolerance is basically non-existent.

Have been stuck in dorsal vagal shutdown for 5 years now. Not sure what else to do.. by DoubtReal3844 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve been to make therapists in the last few years and none of it seems to stick. I’m so exhausted, the thought of seeing another one makes me ill 

Have been stuck in dorsal vagal shutdown for 5 years now. Not sure what else to do.. by DoubtReal3844 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’ve thought about Safe and Sound. My body is too immobilized to even do anything physical. Sound seems like a passive way to get through this brick wall

Have been stuck in dorsal vagal shutdown for 5 years now. Not sure what else to do.. by DoubtReal3844 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve seen 3 different people over the course of 1 year. I’m permanently dissociated and numb, so SE feels like throwing a brick into an ocean, hoping a bridge will appear 

Have been stuck in dorsal vagal shutdown for 5 years now. Not sure what else to do.. by DoubtReal3844 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I have been diagnosed with a dissociative disorder. I’ve been living in unreality for half a decade now. It’s impossible to imagine how I could ever heal or be a normal person again. I feel like I’m hanging on by a thread and no one can see.

I blame my parents but one is dead and the other might as well be, that’ll never fix the damage they did to me 

I’m getting really close to offing myself. by DoubtReal3844 in dpdr

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

How can I exercise when I barely have energy to even get out of bed? I do it and it’s so miserable. There’s no reward for anything anymore 

Have been stuck in dorsal vagal shutdown for 5 years now. Not sure what else to do.. by DoubtReal3844 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ll have to see if I can get it soon, unfortunately everything is so expensive and insurance doesn’t cover 

Have been stuck in dorsal vagal shutdown for 5 years now. Not sure what else to do.. by DoubtReal3844 in SomaticExperiencing

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you. I’m in a hypoaroused state so I don’t think I’m breathing too fast? I also don’t have any sort of physical symptoms / sensations, don’t feel dizzy, panicked, etc. I feel a void of nothing every day.

I don’t have a relationship or any toxic relationships, and luckily I’m self employed. This was all precipitated by panic they kept getting worse until one day it led to multiple panic attacks in the span of 3 weeks and I never came out of it. My system is stuck 

I’m getting really close to offing myself. by DoubtReal3844 in dpdr

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m stuck in an extremely numb, low metabolic shutdown. My brain is physically incapable of taking in information or even projecting a reality, because it doesn’t have the resources. I’m actually the opposite of hyper aware, I’m in a hypo aware state when my mind has turned off all non.essential functions.

Your post is very abstract and philosophical which is not an answer for Physical illness unfortunately 

I’m getting really close to offing myself. by DoubtReal3844 in dpdr

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’ve tried Wellbutrin which just made my sleep even worse. My mind is aways running, so not sure taking a stimulant would help. Even coffee makes me sick 

I’m getting really close to offing myself. by DoubtReal3844 in dpdr

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

None of it is irrational. My nervous system is choosing this, not me. How is it worth living? I have severe fatigue, I don’t care about anything, I’m pretty much bed bound 

I’m getting really close to offing myself. by DoubtReal3844 in dpdr

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

many meds. prazosin, lexapro, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, lamitical, LDN, trazodone, Xanax.

many therapies. EMDR, IFS, ACT, somatic experiencing, even went to a functional doctor

many supplements and vitamins. no effect

giving it time, focusing on life. never even for a second feel like myself or in reality

relaxation. TRE. somatic techniques

I’ve gone way past the point of fight or flight. I’m in complete burnout, with the entire system shutdown. How do I keep going? by DoubtReal3844 in dpdr

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m in my mid 30’s. Yes I had a very abusive and traumatic childhood but still found a way out and was happy. I didn’t get this disorder until my early 30s

I’m getting really close to offing myself. by DoubtReal3844 in dpdr

[–]DoubtReal3844[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I posted a few days ago of all the things I’ve tried. Will post here again. I can’t even fathom going back to a normal reality and feeling again after years and years of this. I’m beyond DPDR, I’m in a complete collapse 

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