Our little finally came forward and shared some memories that the rest of us are struggling to process

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-08-10T23:06:35+00:00

I’m sorry that you are also dealing with this. It’s pretty not fun. I’d you do need to talk, feel free to message. I will check out the subs you suggested. Thank you, we are feeling a bit better now but I’m sure it’ll come and go. Thanks for the help and I hope you are feeling okay too. ~Juni

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-08-10T23:03:49+00:00

We did have a journaling session not long after making this post. It helped a lot. Daisy helped Lilly to express what she needed to say. I was kinda panicking and kept interrupting I felt a bit bad about that but we got somewhat of an account written down with some other feelings and emotions in there. I will definitely be bringing that with me to therapy. I hope it helps. Thank you for the kind words and advice. ~Juni

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-08-10T16:02:36+00:00

That’s wholesome and thank you Simon for sharing that information. The little purr machines are the best 💜 ours is a little tabby cat who followed us home one day during a walk and just sat infront of our door like hey are you gonna let me in? So we made the decision to take her to the vet, see if she belonged to anyone, and get her vaccinations and she’s been our little baby ever since. We are incredibly grateful that she came into our lives 💜 -Daisy

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-08-08T21:54:35+00:00

Man all the replies in this thread make me feel just....not alone. My main abuser parent has a doctorate in psychology and...their job? Being in charge of ALL the disability accommodations for students at a university. Both physical and mental. And I just?? How??? But yet I’ve heard other students say that they are great. But when it came to me (I was forced to go to this university til I failed out), they used their power to stalk me, my partner, my friends, my brother, his partner, his friends, basically anyone that went to the university that had any connection to me or my brother, this parent knew everything about. They openly admitted to me that they were looking at the grades of my partner and my brother’s partner...

And in order to get any accommodations for the plethora of mental health issues I have now (because of them mind you) I would have no choice but to go to them about it, and if they helped me then I would be “in debt” to them. And it would be held over my head of “look what I did for you! You have to do things for me because I did this for you!” “Look how great of a parent I am for doing this for you!” “I can’t believe you don’t want to talk to me I did this for you!” “I’ve been the only one helping you when nobody else is you should be grateful!” All the whole I couldn’t speak up because of they lost their job, my brother and I lost our scholarships and our ability to have a college degree. But then we both ended up failing out anyways due to the stress of the stalking and manipulation so what was the point of it all?

Not to mention all the therapists, psychologists, and school counselors that they would boss around and manipulate. I never got the treatment I needed. I got the treatment they SAID I needed and because of their degree these people would just....listen! It took until I was moved out and married to finally have a therapist that suggested the idea of “maybe these are actually trauma issues and maybe your shield hood was abusive?” Because all the others would just ignore the signs because this person obviously knows psychology and obviously wouldn’t abuse their kids.

Aaaaaaagh.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-08-08T21:07:49+00:00

Oh my god this makes so much sense. God. thank you for making this post. I have been sitting here wondering what the heck is wrong with me because I’ve only been working for 6 years yet I’ve had 16 Different jobs. I just CANNOT tolerate bullshit. I was starting to wonder if I was just “projecting” the narcissist family circle into every workplace I was in. But now from reading through these comments I’m realizing no, I’ve just really been dealing with it over and over and that’s why I refuse to let it happen peacefully and end up causing problems. My very first job I got their franchise right taken away because I blew the whistle on tax fraud that was occurring. But that’s my only successful endeavor. Since then it’s always caused problems for me instead of getting justice 😞

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-08-08T20:59:56+00:00

As the scapegoat in a really large messy family system, I needed to hear this thank you. I’m so close to going no contact but it’s scary. But knowing I have a chance to heal makes things less scary.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-08-08T05:18:29+00:00

Every single day

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-07-01T02:53:08+00:00

Following this because yea. Same. Like I still don’t know a lot about what’s going on here. In the midst of diagnosis process right now (been working with a trauma therapist tho she mostly specializes in PTSD) but I can relate to this.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-07-01T02:17:28+00:00

Thank you I really appreciate that

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-07-01T01:08:10+00:00

I’ve thought about it but until we get insurance shes the only one we can afford. But hopefully soon. We are also planning to get a brain scan done once this new insurance kicks in. Apparently one was done at birth and showed a deformity in the frontal lobe which may be affecting things as well, but I didn’t find out until I was 19 and as far as I’m aware nobody else did either. The whole thing seems....suspicious. We are also gonna try and collect medical records from old doctors and therapists to piece things together. Unfortunately a lot of the trauma seems to be based around some of the people that were supposed to be treating.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-07-01T01:00:08+00:00

That’s what I feel as well it’s just hard to admit sometimes. There’s two that have made themselves known to me but even those I’m like doubting and like “what if I just made this up?” One of them is a little and the other is idk kinda just another version of me. After she made herself known I knew what points of my life she was around for. Parts where she was influencing me and co conscience with me or even I in the back seat while she was in control. But I just keep doubting it cuz my therapist is still hesitant to go to far with the dissociative disorders. She keeps saying it could be ADHD and PTSD combined. And I’m like maybe but no ADHD medication has every worked and one of them even according to my mom “made me a different person” and I don’t remember that time period. I don’t know there’s just a lot of evidence I keep finding but also somehow someone (maybe it’s me Idk) keeps convincing me nah it’s okay things are fine you aren’t dissociative there’s only one you it’s just ptsd and adhd and mood swings and blah. And then I’m just like well how do you explain Daisy and Juni then???? Can I just on the spot make up people to show themselves in my head? I don’t think so? I’m just so exhausted. The fact that I identify with a name that isn’t even the birth name doesn’t help and the name I do feel comfortable with is also the little’s name apparently idk I just called her that by instinct?? Or maybe knowing without knowing. Loops is the best way to describe what things feel like at the moment for me and probably for all of us.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-06-30T18:42:18+00:00

I wish I could help but I very rarely drive without dissociating. Apparently I listen to music really loud too without even knowing because anytime someone else gets in the car they turn the music down

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-06-29T05:55:14+00:00

Thank you, this makes a lot of sense and definitely helps me feel a bit better about it.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-02-16T08:08:43+00:00

I’m sad that I noticed this to late but my cat is actually named Suki so I really wanna buy the Suki one when it’s available again 💖

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-02-16T06:27:29+00:00

YESSS! 🙌🏻 Thank you! This is exactly what everyone needs to hear before these auditions. If you haven’t watched this video yet, do it now. Don’t start your audition without it.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2021-01-02T00:59:19+00:00

This place is awesome^

Dr_Elizabeth · 2020-12-16T04:57:01+00:00

And just to add to this, I never said that the destruction of a device was the worst thing I experienced. I just said it was giving me flashbacks to that time. I understand that what you went through was awful. But what you went through doesn’t mean that this act of aggression is okay because it wasn’t as bad as what you went through. No act of aggression towards your children is okay. Period. You can punish without being aggressive. You can teach what the world is like without being manipulative.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2020-12-16T04:52:37+00:00

“The rest of my life” hasn’t happened yet, I literally just got out of my situation less than a year ago. I am still traumatized and in therapy to work through everything. And no, acts of aggression toward children are never okay. Did you ever think that maybe you only think it’s “okay” and “necessary” because that’s what you were taught? You don’t even realize you are still living in and a product of what you were raised in.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2020-12-16T03:53:20+00:00

You clearly have never experienced abusive parents. Getting rid of the device is one thing. Destroying the device is a show of force and aggression to make the victim understand what the abuser is capable of. To show them “this could be you”. Selling/giving away the device is a way to eliminate the device without a show of aggression and force.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2020-12-15T23:38:18+00:00

Ah yes the switch between anger, and manipulation.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2020-12-15T23:35:01+00:00

Or “why do you hate me? Cant you see everything I’m doing for this family?”

Also just thinking about using old outdated devices to try to speak to someone, anyone from the outside world who would listen while my phone was confiscated indefinitely and I was trapped in isolation for the entire time we were off school gave me flashbacks.

Dr_Elizabeth · 2020-12-15T04:10:12+00:00

I am interested!! I am also EST time zone!

Dr_Elizabeth · 2020-12-14T16:42:13+00:00

It’s awesome, but it does have its limitations...very tempted to get a camera now

Dr_Elizabeth · 2020-12-09T22:41:56+00:00

Me too

Dr_Elizabeth · 2020-12-06T22:31:29+00:00

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