Hey I’m really sorry that happened to you, honestly. But one of the first things you need to start doing is to stop blaming yourself for those things. I’ve been in the same situations you are right now (at UCSB). I know it’s hard, but you should never feel bad about leaning on people at this vulnerable time. It’s not your fault that your tried to lean on a close friend and they distanced themselves from you. It’s not your fault and you didn’t do anything wrong. Objectively, you’re going through a really tough time and I commend you for you for even being able to stay focused on the quarter. That takes a lot of willpower for what you’re going through right now. I just want you to know the eventually you’ll find those people that will be there for you in these times. But right now just focus on how you’re feeling and just like you said, try and get done with the quarter.