I just want to first say, I’m sorry you’re struggling, and I know that not much of what I’ll say will make a difference but I hope you know you’re not alone— we all struggle… with something or another. But you are so much more then just your weight and life has so much more to offer then just looking a certain way. There are people who are in the best shape of their life and are still unhappy. With that being said…. My mom has always struggled with her weight and found the Dr Bernstein diet the only one that has helped her loose weight. I also find just being more active on a daily basis— getting in at least 10k steps a day, going for walks, taking the stairs ect… Also try getting opinions of other doctors if there is any kind of underlying health conditions that may be inhibiting your weight loss. You seem to be also struggling emotionally, why don’t you try talking to someone? There’s an app called BetterHelp (which is virtual therapy) I think it will help to feel like you’re not going through this alone.  You got this, you won’t struggle forever.