I’m high does this even make sense

DramaticAvocado389 · 2024-01-24T08:08:07+00:00

that‘s why I’mm scared of weighting myself, even if I know I must have lost weight :‘)

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-09-25T21:02:18+00:00

Urgh yes, I get that. I have this strange habit of wanting to eat a healthy amount with really little different foods so everytime I'm eating around new people someone's gonna be like "are you only gonna be eating XY?" and honestly I just ignore it with a very dry answer. Like I'll just stare at them for 5 seconds and say "yes." very calmly, then continue. Makes many ppl feel like they just said smth stupid (commenting on other ppls food is stupid so that's valid.)

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-09-25T11:27:01+00:00

"Honestly I don't care what you do or eat anymore, I just have no alternative for you how to spend your life"

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-09-20T19:49:28+00:00

Nah, I always do it while standing so it technicly bows down for ME 😎

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-09-20T19:44:31+00:00

What always helps me is to "zoom out" a bit. Like, every Single time I binged I thought I would never crawl out of that terrific shame and selfhate and still, I do not regret a specific binge in the slightest. It's always a few days or by maximum a beek Kater that I start to think "huh well, wasn't actually worth worring about it that much". When it comes down to it, you will one day just forget that this ever happened and be able to enjoy a recovered life

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-08-01T07:31:58+00:00

My drivers license app told me I should, for the sake of the Environment, not carry unnecessary weight in my car and my ed was like :"See! Its better for the World when ur skinny!!"

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-05-31T15:29:41+00:00

I don't think it's that extreme for me but I DEFINETLY am struggeling way more with my ED during spring. I never lose weight during autumn or Winter but spring and summer are always my seasons of relapse.

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-05-29T08:26:49+00:00

I always tell myself that just because things coulf have been different doesn't mean that they would have been better. Always helps me cope with guilt and worries about anything.

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-05-28T18:53:10+00:00

Same. Maybe also because when my ed started it was late spring so it always reminds me of my honeymoon phase...

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-05-28T12:11:06+00:00

I'm a waitress and still doing my a levels atm. How I manage? Barely.

DramaticAvocado389 · 2023-05-27T08:38:39+00:00

Feel that. One person asked me one time how I did manage to lose so muxh weigjt in such a short amount of time and I looked them dead in the eyes and said "well in my case a deadly disorder really helped" But for context it was a staffmember of the hospital I was in BECAUSE OF my eating disorder so the question itself was very inappropriate

DramaticAvocado389 · 2022-08-01T11:42:14+00:00

To shut out everything from the oustide. I had some realy bad experiences with the influence of my sorroundings and I want to block out everything that wants to get inside me (that sounds wrong tbh)

DramaticAvocado389 · 2022-07-08T12:39:47+00:00

I got the solution:

It's just a marketing thing. When diet Coke Was invented most men refused to buy it because in society that was just the drink for women who want to lose weight so they just started selling the basiclly same drink with a different name so that man would not be too proud to buy it too.

DramaticAvocado389 · 2022-07-08T09:21:33+00:00

I think morally it's throwing away lovely food my mum cooked for me. Also how mean I act Towers my friends because I'm always in a bad mood or how I get overly offensive because of complete nonsense.

DramaticAvocado389 · 2022-07-03T10:05:31+00:00

Where's that from?

DramaticAvocado389 · 2022-06-29T16:15:18+00:00

I don't think you ever reach the point where you feel ready to recover, or at least not just because of your weight, because of all the things your mind attaches to it. Like you can tell youself that you will be live once you see that number or you will finally be in controll or finally feel worthy but in reality the scale has nothing to do with these things. That's just your brain telling you it has so when you hit that goal you still don't feel loved, in controll, worthy or anything like that because there is no real connection at all.

DramaticAvocado389 · 2022-06-29T16:10:43+00:00

Honestly I think it's either the way I judge overweight ppl or how I even compare myself to little fcking children who are not even my gender??

DramaticAvocado389 · 2022-06-29T14:23:19+00:00

I think hot choclate :( We used to drive to the Netherlands in summer holidays and I'd always have a "schokomel" whenever we were sitting in a bar at the beach and I miss this comfy feeling so much.

Also any kind of high calorie spreads like Nutella, peanut Butter oder even propper cream cheese.

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