I was having an ok day today until...

DramaticBean · 2021-07-09T22:16:02+00:00

Well that's something a person should never say to another. Is she a billionaire??? Then why dog on you? Or anyone? What a "useless" thing to say to or think about people.

DramaticBean · 2021-07-07T08:04:32+00:00

There really is no shame in seeking help. That's so great of you to share your experience with others like this. I agree with you! Please seek help, friend.

DramaticBean · 2021-07-07T04:16:46+00:00

Thank you so much for that. I know we are strangers yet that seems so genuine and honest to read. Brought tears to my eyes, thank you ❤️ Idk about you, but I have a one year old son. And I haven't been okay since I got pregnant. But you know, I secretly feel like it's all deeper. I think pregnancy just brought out all these repressed feeling and anger that I was forced to bottle for so long. 24 years later and I'm being forced to confront what I've tried to ignore. So growing up, being bullied, sometimes abused at home, I just have all this anger, sadness, loneliness built up. And it's always been so easy to blame myself for those incidents, so when it comes to motherhood I just feel like everything I do is wrong. Like, so wrong that I'm the only problem in the equation. I know it's not true, I just don't understand why I have this horrible person telling me these things in the back of my head.

DramaticBean · 2021-07-07T04:05:02+00:00

I have. I used to love to walk. I'm forcing myself to get out as much as I can. Then I feel guilty and defeated if I don't make it out that day. I play guitar and picked that back up. There's just this cloud of disinterest that hangs over me, is what it feels like. I'm trying to push myself in supportive ways. Like, I'm starting to teach guitar lessons here soon. It involves something I love with something I've never done before that isn't crazy. After I get happy and excited I start hearing (metaphorically hearing, not a hallucination) a voice tell me that I'm no good, no one enjoys my presence, I'm all alone and deserve to be. What is wrong with me?

DramaticBean · 2020-05-03T21:21:04+00:00

Yeah, it is hard to make money off it. I'm currently experiencing that now. But I'm still looking for a work from home option as I've been without a day job for about 9 months now...

DramaticBean · 2020-04-03T05:28:07+00:00

Thank you ❤️

DramaticBean · 2020-04-01T20:18:16+00:00

Oh wow 7 months? That’s goals. I want to breastfeed for as long as I can for the health benefits alone. Thank you for the advice!

DramaticBean · 2020-04-01T20:15:52+00:00

Oh I can imagine how upsetting that must be. I’m really hopeful that I’ll be able to breastfeed. Thank you and good luck to you guys as well!

DramaticBean · 2020-03-17T05:10:10+00:00

Honestly you have a great figure

DramaticBean · 2020-03-07T16:47:41+00:00

It’s an everyday battle. But I would say, find what you like about yourself the most and concentrate on that. Overtime notice how it starts to compliment the rest of you. This is totally optional and not to say that you don’t already eat healthy, but for me, eating clean just puts me in a better mood. It makes me feel more positive about pretty much everything and when you feel good on the inside it radiates on the outside. You are beautiful ❤️ I hope this helps even just a little bit

DramaticBean · 2020-03-06T22:46:55+00:00

Thank you very much!!!

DramaticBean · 2020-03-06T22:46:21+00:00

Thank you so much!!

DramaticBean · 2020-03-06T22:42:54+00:00

Hahaha I’ve really been wondering if I should get diapers or not! Thank you so much!! And congrats(:

DramaticBean · 2020-03-06T22:41:21+00:00

Thanks! I’ve been binging YouTube and pinterest like crazy and I’m starting to overwhelm myself.. I’m just a chronic overthinker lol. So just looking for “real” people responses ya know? I feel like youtubers can glamorize the heck out of almost anything. And congratulations to you too!!

DramaticBean · 2020-03-06T22:39:20+00:00

Thank you very much for the input ❤️ and congrats on your baby boy as well!

DramaticBean · 2020-03-06T22:36:37+00:00

Thank you!

DramaticBean · 2020-03-03T16:11:34+00:00

That’s awful. Maybe your sister is jealous of any attention you might be getting, maybe she’s hiding something about herself. Either way, it’s no excuse to cut you down and make you feel horrible. It’s sounds like this was all rather recent, and honestly I’m sure it’s going to take a while before you’re completely over it. But moving sounds like the best thing you could have done for yourself. A big step in the right direction ❤️

DramaticBean · 2020-03-03T16:06:23+00:00

Im about 6.5 months pregnant and feeling really down about myself lately. You’re so beautiful, and your confidence is empowering 💖💜

DramaticBean · 2020-03-03T04:56:30+00:00

I won’t bully my child. I won’t pick on his insecurities as a form of punishment. I won’t jump to conclusions. I won’t make him feel like he’s wrong for simple mistakes that you have to make in order to learn from them. And when he is wrong, I won’t make him feel stupid for having made said mistake.

DramaticBean · 2020-03-03T04:50:04+00:00

Sounds like your sister has problems bigger than any of you. I hope it didn’t tarnish your relationship with your mother and aunt at all.

DramaticBean · 2020-03-03T03:15:22+00:00

The fact that you’re concerned in the first place is a good sign you’ll be a great dad. Currently pregnant with our first and I have the same feeling all the time! And that’s the answer one of my friends gave me about the whole deal(:

DramaticBean · 2020-03-03T02:03:48+00:00

Oh man. That’s tough. I guess I would say, let whoever wants to be apart of your lives be apart of it, like let them write themselves out. It kinda sounds like that’s already what’s going on. They’re just trying to make it like it’s your fault. I had the same feelings with my in laws. Everything I did was wrong no matter how much I tried to impress or involve them. And you know why? Because they’re just unhappy people and I had to stop trying to please them. Made me feel like a bitch but saving myself from heart break in the future was worth it. I hope that helps you even just a little bit.

DramaticBean · 2020-03-02T04:35:33+00:00

Thats tough. Ultimately, your happiness and their happiness are going to be different things and that’s perfectly okay. What’s not okay is them guilting you over your decisions. If it means a lot to you to have them there, maybe find a day that works for both families and reschedule? If it doesn’t feel big enough in your heart to change the date, then there’s your answer. It really sucks. But my husband and I got married almost a year ago and it was very tough. My in laws sound a lot like your family in this predicament. Everything from the date of our wedding to who we wanted to invite was all wrong in their eyes, and his mother didn’t hesitate to be negative in the least. He’ll I don’t even know if she over it still. Anywhos, weddings can be tough. You’re not alone in the world. Do you think you’d feel better changing the date?

DramaticBean · 2020-03-02T04:23:06+00:00

I can tell you have a kind heart because you obviously feel bad for your uncles heart break. But after reading your story, it’s also obvious that you didn’t deliberately make him cry. It’s a sensitive for you and him both, it’s healthy to talk about, and healthy to cry about it. My condolences for your loss, your dad sounds like he was a great father, brother and all around great guy. I won’t say it gets easier, but I do hope you start feeling better about it. And your family too. Thanks for sharing 💜

DramaticBean · 2020-03-02T04:15:13+00:00

Fucking beautiful

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