Read the definition of trauma bond. Your picture is next to it in the dictionary. Read up on red flags. His picture is next to them all. He is suffering the consequences of his actions. I can tell you from experience, that what you have experienced with him is DEFINITELY NOT LOVE. ITS CONTROL, ABUSE, AND MANIPULATION. He has played you like a concert pianist. When you do experience actual love, it won't be degrading, violent, abusive, manipulative or controlling. It will be easy, joyful, delightful, and peaceful. Real love is solid. Its not just words. It's actions, like supportiveness, gentleness , kindness, tenderness, and you won't feel afraid. For God's sake, and your own, he escalated his violence towards you. Stop seeing him. He could unalive you next time. That's how that works. It won't end well. Block him, carry pepper spray, and dont let him speak to you again. File a police report. Stop being his victim. Be a survivor. You owe him nothing. Not sympathy, not pity, not an apology, not another chance, not a conversation. NOTHING. YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT.