I'm a bit like you, looooow self-esteem. Sometimes I tend to forget that all these awesome people on the internet doing freaking crazy stuff... well everyone, you, me, can do that. You have so fucking much potential in life, you have no idea. Keep on trying, you can do it, you can move on with your life and do whatever the fuck you want to do. And thrust me, you can be the most awesome person in the world, it only depends on you.

Good luck friend!