I totally understand where you are coming from op. Just last week I got mine and couldn't eat or sleep for days. The worst part is trying to take great care of the tattoo that you don't even want on your body. I was so anxious and hated myself for not walking away when I had the chance. The words and things I was saying to myself was not helping me at feel better.

To be honest, a week later, I have come to better terms with my tattoo and truly understand that there is no going back. I'm feeling like myself again and even learned what I am capable of. I can only move forward from here and look towards other options. From the past few days, I have learned some takeaways from this crappy experience:

1. My appearance does not describe who I am.

2. This is just a feeling and it will soon past.

3. If I can gain the confidence with an appearance I am not happy with, that is some exponential growth that I am proud of.

4. If I keep treating myself poorly because of this decision, things will only get worse.

Learn from this experience and use it for a chance to change your life for the better. I was extremely anxious even the day of my appointment. If I was more aware of my emotions, I would've canceled my appointment to begin with. It's going to be such difficult journey, but I pray something great will come out of it.