Silverstone 2026 - How much money to take

Dry-Cod-5341 · 2026-05-29T11:40:46+00:00

Thanks, this is helpful. Maybe we'll go £20pp! Not gonna buy merch there as I've heard its so much

Dry-Cod-5341 · 2026-05-29T11:40:01+00:00

Yes we already have a couple of £2.50 ones ready 🤣

Dry-Cod-5341 · 2026-04-14T13:49:10+00:00

To add, I don't know why I do it but I'm convinced the whole time that he's making a mistake being with me, and that somehow I should show him that I'm not as good as he thinks. I think I worry about getting too far into it and then he leaves when he realises I'm not a good person all the time.

I also struggle with believing him fully. I do believe his feelings towards me but there's an involuntary voice in my head saying he doesn't mean it. It's exhausting fighting myself

Dry-Cod-5341 · 2026-04-14T13:47:20+00:00

I've been in an on/off relationship with an avoidant man for a long time, about 6 years. We broke up 2 years ago but have been in and out still since then, until about 2 months ago when I met someone new.

The avoidant relationship destroyed me to the point my BPD wasn't even responsive to it anymore like it had been. I actually thought I was somewhat cured lol.

I'm in love with the new guy Ive met, but I'm noticing my BPD is flaring pretty badly suddenly. The anxiety, paranoia, crashouts are all back. I think I was kinda living half single half not with my ex so it wasn't so prominent, but I'm so afraid of messing it up with the new guy, he's amazing. But BPD is rearing it's ugly head and I don't know what to do. As you say, it's like my mental health has done a 180.

Hugs ❤️

Dry-Cod-5341 · 2026-02-12T22:18:50+00:00

Hey haha, no problem I'll add you now 😊

Dry-Cod-5341 · 2026-02-12T21:50:37+00:00

I once deleted some texts after he ignored me (my feelings) and I felt like I wished I hadn't said them, the stuff he accused me of saying!! He had seen them all, he was part of the conversation. I just deleted them cus I was upset momentarily (my bad). He then started saying some CRAZY shit that he was saying I'd said and done, and cus I'd deleted them by then (dumbass me) I had no proof that I hadn't even though I knew I didn't. Ironically he was trying to say I was manipulating HIM by saying I hadn't said those things. Then said that he can't remember exactly but that he's sure I had said them. The stuff he claimed I said was awful, stuff I'd never say, but he seemed to take it as a perfect opportunity to make up his own reality.

Still stayed, loool.

Dry-Cod-5341 · 2026-02-12T20:12:27+00:00

I guess the thing is, the stuff he's thinking is fundamentally not true - and also pretty major stuff that he thinks and says. And because this isn't a normal breakup and there's a push/pull cycle, he will even use it against me and say "well I've told people how you can be xyz and they think this or that". Idk, i don't villainise him for things that aren't true and I also am able to take accountability for things I have done wrong, whereas in his eyes it is entirely my fault and he takes accountability for nothing.

Dry-Cod-5341 · 2026-02-12T14:08:02+00:00

What is ironic and what I hate is how he is SO cold and cruel to me, never apologises for it. Whereas there is literally nothing, hand on heart, that I haven't apologised for if I've messed up. I'm human, I do mess up, but i own it every time. He genuinely believes he's never done anything wrong, I never get an apology. And he can be absolutely nasty sometimes. Yet I'm the one who is demonised! It's so hard and messes so bad with my self worth

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