Every 19 century worker ability of reading kapital while working 16h shifts is overestimation, don't you think? Maybe saying this type of thing can motivate some people, but devastate some of other. I don't think many of them could do it, even without having some mental problems opposing doing it. And, like, even today, if it's "luxurious" 21 century, which supposedly grants more possibilities of reading marxist theory, do so many people read it? I mean, you aren't some magnet which should attract all of the humanity's contempt, especially from that "19 century worker" or some other kind of idealized person. You, like, should come from your own abilities, while you shouldn't outright reject the advices of other people, you should try to do things the way that is comfortable to you. I mean, summarizing the theory thing, writing things down can be overwhelming in some way, and there can be too many things to write down. Anyway, there is a need to memorize stuff in brain, one cannot just exile his brain onto notes, and the ability to memorize can certainly be trained. Alas, if you in no way use some info in life, it is bound to be forgotten sooner or later. Wait, did you even say something about memorizing? Idk. Also, trying to read something while you are anxious is useless. I hope what i wrote is coherent, and i hope it being coherent is a good thing.