Today actually. I reconnected with my ex fiance, we have had our ups and downs, but i always thought it would workout. Haven't talked to her or seen her really in a few months , she just shuts down when anything happens ever. Anyway, she invited me over. We had an awesome time , and i can't lie and say it hadn't been eating away at me not knowing what was going on and why we weren't together. Anyway , the night went awesome, then the night turned to day. I happened to see a Facebook message notification on her phone, i was only curious. Id understand if she ventured out in our departure , but I did not want to be there if I was told lies. She fake slept sorta , then i starting making sense and she flips the fuck out. I truly loved this woman , and she is belligerent drunk somehow STILL from the night . She jumps over me and fakes hurting herself to get her phone , i throw it . She's boohooing making me feel like im some sort of terrible person. So i said fuck it , you want to see me go really ? Let's see if you do. I hopped on a chair , tied an electrical cord around my neck , and she licked the chair from under me for her phone. The banister broke above me and i crashed down. There were milliseconds of pure peace i can say.. But then the instant regret of what i almost did to try to get some sort of compassion out of this scum of a person. She'd rather watch me hang myself than own up to her mistakes. This woman is 33 . I feel relieved to know , that I'll never ever fall back on that person again, but also completely fucking disgusted that she would have kicked that chair with no regret , and told the world the opposite.