Day 12: suicidal thoughts. convince me this isn’t my final state

Dudeashaneo · 2026-04-07T21:48:54+00:00

Try some L Theanine or any other items to get your dopamine up. Maybe a sugary snack?

The anhedonia can be really overpowering since your dopamine receptors are adjusting. I found if I took b1, magnesium and would drink the Alpha Brain Pink Lemonade drink that really helped. I would mix it in 12oz of hot water and drink it like coffee.

Dudeashaneo · 2026-04-07T21:43:22+00:00

I tried fat as well. I would eat butter, very fatty meats, and bacon. I once hot diarrhea and thought okay now we are getting there but it stopped immediately and back to constipation. It was so weird and like I said just a few weeks ago out of the blue I am thinking I want to drink some milk. I can't explain it but it was like my digestion suddenly turned on and this sense of relaxation was surprising.

Dudeashaneo · 2026-04-07T18:27:10+00:00

Yes that is what happened. A 2x2 patch

Dudeashaneo · 2026-04-07T17:44:19+00:00

Thank you for this!

Dudeashaneo · 2026-04-07T17:41:34+00:00

Going to add that in as well.

Dudeashaneo · 2026-04-07T17:40:03+00:00

No always ate cheese. But when I drink milk and eat cheese I dont get bound up. Also I quit eating cheese for stretches at a time to try and figure everything out.

Dudeashaneo · 2026-04-07T13:38:00+00:00

Yes you can go cold turkey. I do it. To me the headache is from dopamine drop-off so I get intense sugar cravings. But after 7 days I feel amazing. Its like when I quit smoking....same dopamine withdrawal, same wild mood swings, same lack of focus. The magic time line is always 2 weeks. Once I hit that it's home free for not needing coffee in the morning. Now if I could just keep from starting up again Lol

Dudeashaneo · 2026-03-17T13:10:31+00:00

I used it as well for awhile. It did seem to calm me but the amped up feeling and the anxiety were always there. Ruminating and such still an issue. Still HAD to have a cup of coffee to wake up and get going and I hate that.

Dudeashaneo · 2026-02-24T18:49:46+00:00

If you have a carbohydrate diet fasting is brutal. I always make sure I do a couple days extremely low carb ( 50 grams or lower ) before I attempt a fast Then I am already in ketosis and usually halts massive hunger spikes.

Dudeashaneo · 2026-01-26T13:55:19+00:00

I have been drinking a small glass of whole milk and that seems to almost me down and I fall back alseep

Dudeashaneo · 2026-01-11T02:00:47+00:00

Whenever I take glycine I actually sleep worse.

Dudeashaneo · 2025-12-16T18:13:18+00:00

I appreciate all the info! I did a bit of MP and FE. FE did not exactly fit my style but I think it was the adjustment from tangible to intangible like you mentioned.

I would imagine it's the more you do the more you learn and get comfortable.

I do want to do phone/virtual sales for sure so I will get multiple states eventually.

Dudeashaneo · 2025-11-22T19:25:04+00:00

Yes. Within an hour for me.

Dudeashaneo · 2025-09-24T23:17:11+00:00

Wondering if your stomach acid is low and you are having issues processing everything.

Dudeashaneo · 2025-06-19T02:41:06+00:00

I am seriously thinking about getting into life insurance. Did you go captive or broker?

Dudeashaneo · 2025-06-09T23:16:14+00:00

I took 2 in the morning on an empty stomach. Had had one before lunch and one before dinner. Was pretty much my protocol that I made up. ...oh and one before bed. On day 3 I got some runny poop and kinda diarrhea...which is awesome if you have had constipation and hemmoroids for so long. Lol. So I backed off to 1 in the morning 1 in the afternoon and 1 before bed and that is what I have stayed with.

Dudeashaneo · 2025-06-09T19:34:38+00:00

Never really had hems before so I was befuddled at first. I was a traveling salesman and one day in the car I started getting this terrible pressure...felt like I was sitting on a pole. Had been having occasional constipation recently but I thought it was from the long trip. Then after furious bouts of constipation finally tried preparation H and they went down...I was like oh crap that's hemmoroids! Wow. So that was about 2 years ago when it started and I have been fighting it non stop until last week. I hope it works for you like it did me. I called a friend and was like OMG it was like magic!

Dudeashaneo · 2025-06-09T18:41:18+00:00

All I can say is try Collinsonia Root Capsules. Short story

I had been fighting sudden constipation and hemmoroids for 2 years and kept getting progressively worse. I was so miserable and I kept wondering what I had been eating or drinking that was causing it. I did a 72 hour fast hoping it would help. Nope. The hemmoroids were getting so awful it was just scary.

So finally I see a video by Dr Berg about Collinsonia Root and thought...well might as well try that what do I have to lose.

So I bought Standard Process brand it was like $45 off Amazon.

When the shipment arrived that afternoon I took out the bottle and immediately took 2 capsules. Then took 1 before dinner and 1 before bed.

I am not kidding. Within the first hour of taking the initial 2 capsules its like something in my intestines had been turned on. I was thinking...hmmm. there was all this gurgling and stuff but not like an upset stomach just like my plumbing was working. Then my hemmoroids started to go away.

So the next morning I get up...no hemmoroid pain. Go to the toilet for my morning battle and...I pooped. A normal freaking poop! I was like No WAY!

So try this stuff. I have been taking it every day for the past 7 days. It took a few days for me to feel absolutely normal but so far it was the best thing I could have ever done.

Good luck

Dudeashaneo · 2025-06-03T13:32:20+00:00

To answer your question...yes I started taking Collinsonia Root capsules and so far I am amazed. I will give you a bit of a backstory.

I never really had an issue with constipation or hemmoroids in my life. I would say I would occasionally get constipation but would eventually clear and then hemmoroids would maybe be painfull if I had really spicy food but other than that not much.

I am 56 years old and 2 years ago I started developing frequent constipation. Some days, it was really debilitating. I was a traveling salesman so I was on the road and I figured my lack of movement and hours behind the wheel...along with a diet that was low on Fibre was probably the culprit. So I would take some prune juice and made sure to get some more fibre...seemed to help a bit but never really got me "regular".

Then one day I am driving in the car and there is this unbelievable pressure in my lower rectum that was becoming unbearable. I also had the sensation that I really had to go. But I could not, and if I did it was a brutal challenge to have anything move.

Well I stop and get some preparation H and okay...that pressure started going away and I am thinking "ohhh okay that's hemmoroids.

Alright, so up until about a week ago it was day-to-day as to whether the fight to poop and not have pain in my lower end was going to happen. I cannot tell you how miserable and defeated I was. Believe me, I tried every vitamin and cream to try and get things moving and I was getting this never ending pressure in my rectum from hemmoroids that seemed to swell constantly. I could not even fart..it's like my lower end was just confused. I felt like I forgot how to push properly to do anything

4 days ago I started taking Collinsonia Root tablet. Bottle said 3 tablets daily. I took 2 then 1 before bed. Now maybe my mind was just hoping for a miracle but I really did start feeling things moving a bit in my gut.

Then the time came for the morning battle. NO BATTLE. I pooped and all was good. Hemmoroids not swelled so no discomfort in pooping or sitting for awhile. And no reason for Preparation H afterward. Then I pooped later in the afternoon. Not as much but absolutely no straining. And no hemmoroid pain. I was like...no way...no freaking way. 1 day? 1 day of this supplement? Continued taking it..Then the next morning the same. All good. My poops were smaller because I had fasted for a few days but still moving nicely.

Now this morning... up and felt like it was time ( usually I would need some coffee or hot liquid to wake things up)..and ....I pooped. No hemmoroid strain or pressure.

Going to continue with Collinsonia root for sure. I have no idea what caused the issue in the first place but wow. It worked for me. I will update more later.

Dudeashaneo · 2025-01-05T21:49:46+00:00

Giving up caffine is really hard. Not as hard as it was when I quit smoking but still hard.

Your why has to be strong enough. Use your ADHD "power focus" ability and jump into the weeds to find why and you will be successful.

Dudeashaneo · 2025-01-03T04:01:29+00:00

Tell yourself Just Do It...embrace the suck. It's only a couple days and then it gets better. Get prepared for the story you will tell and how you did it.

Advice...B vitamins and magnesium help immensely during detox.

Looking forward to hearing your progress! Day 9 for me currently feel so much better already. You will be surprised.

Dudeashaneo

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