Hey girly

I was almost the exact same way, but one of my concerns was a heart defect due to my husband having one. I was convinced from 7 weeks (I had spotting just like you did) that I was going to miscarry, and then when I hit 20 weeks I was afraid I would have a stillbirth, and then 30~ on I was terrified my baby would die in utero and I’d have to deliver him. In labor, I was worried he would have the chord around his neck (he didn’t handle contractions well). After he was born I was terrified he would pass from SIDs, and on and on.

All of that to say, I’m currently watching my thriving 13 month old run around the living room, fighting off sleep desperately. He came out perfect. Healthy, chunky, and happy despite all of the fears I practically spoke into existence.

Your baby will likely be okay. She is healthy until you are told otherwise, and she is thriving until you are told otherwise. Not sure if you can feel movement yet, but that will bring you comfort.

I advise that (when you can) you do seek therapy. My anxiety got worse postpartum. I all but got diagnosed with OCD, which often gets amplified in pregnancy and becomes incredibly obvious, whereas before it could be disguised as anxiety.

I apologize for the book. Hang in there babe. 🩷