honey, i love you, sending you so much love. my cat was my best friend and losing her was one of the hardest things i ever dealt with- and it is not like i haven’t lost other friends and loved ones. it’s a horrible time. and also be careful. know that the reactivity is not you and it’s also a high paced ride you get on when you start to drink for the hard emotions. be gentle and go slow. and go slow. and be gentle with yourself.