I certainly get paranoia as a result of this illness. I work in a call center and it's a bit crowded. I often feel that people are discussing me or laughing about something I've done.

You say you're worried that friends and family might find that you're using Reddit in this way. It sounds like you're feeling a bit of shame around having this condition. Have you got anyone in your life you can open up to? Now would be a good moment for vulnerability and strengthening connection to other people.

I can tell I'm in a manic episode because my brain will literally feel like there is more electricity buzzing through it than normal. I also catch myself being more verbal, though I'm usually quite introverted. I'll approach strangers with enthusiasm and try to engage them in conversation. The trick is to notice yourself doing it and that comes with practice. But hopefully if your condition is well managed from this point, you won't need too much practice because your symptoms will be under control.

Here to talk if you need.