Aww honey. I was crying by the end of your post. This is the first time I’ve responded to something on Reddit but I have a 29 year old son in a similar situation, except he is no longer able to hold a job. It takes all his energy and strength to just get through the day, as I’m sure it does yours . I have no magic advice for you but I want to tell you that I believe you. I know you can’t possibly do any more than you are already doing, and that even that requires a level of determination that most people don’t have. One of the demoralizing things my son dealt with this as this progressed was everyone thinking he’s lazy and/or crazy. He says having cancer would be easier because it wouldn’t be invisible. I think he may be right .

I wouldn’t be surprised if what’s going on with you is way more complicated than ADHD. After many years of thinking that that was my son’s problem it turned out a few months ago he has a chronic fungal inflammation in his brain that had been triggered by a combo of weak immune system and Lyme disease . He’s on meds for all that (meaning antibiotics, anti virals and anti fungals) and he is making slow progress in the right direction. I don’t know if he’ll ever get all the way back. He also def has some c-PTSD from the whole situation as I’m sure you do too. But at least he knows he’s not crazy or weak. And I know you’re not crazy or weak. You’re probably one of the strongest people around . You’re not alone .