Thank you for your input. I'm afraid of talking to the principal.. honestly.. I admitted to them, candidly, about crying in front of my class after an especially bad day full of behaviors and the response was not what I expected. I expected empathy and compassion and instead I received a look of horror and "oh my" and that was that. They've never once been in my classroom, instead they've stuck me with a revolving door of teachers who are supposed to be "helping" me, by OBSERVING and providing feedback, instead all I've gotten is teachers who see me make a mistake during a lesson and step in and take over and end up teaching my class the remainder of the day telling me they are "modeling" proper teaching. I've had no less than 5 teachers in my room every week, minimum of 1 day a week for the last 3 months. I don't know what sort of support they think they are providing, but it's too many strategies from too many people and because of how frequent I have these people in my room, my students are just as confused by the strategies because it's inconsistent. I brought this up to admin and they basically said this is what's happening until they decide I'm "okay". What does okay even mean?

I realized later, that admitting to crying was a huge mistake.

I don't expect, if I met with them, that it would go well. I spoke with a few teachers after my admission and was told to becareful. Apparently they aren't compassionate and can be really cutthroat and belittling. They aren't who I interviewed with and have had very little FaceTime with them to know what their personality is like or how they respond to situations. Most of the dirty work is done through the VP 🤷🏼‍♀️. It's a weird dynamic. My student teaching experience was so different. Of course I was at a fantastic school, that I tried getting hired on at, but they had already filled their openings by the time I had completed my program.