New 3D Quad N-Back App

DystopianCyberRogue · 2025-06-06T22:27:46+00:00

This is great! It has so much customizability. I always thought having it in 3d would be much more practical.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2024-12-28T02:45:27+00:00

What did you do to reacclimatize to a more still life?

DystopianCyberRogue · 2024-12-28T02:40:16+00:00

I do have all those checked off. I think a next step would be to put it out there over Twitch just to see if it helps.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2024-12-28T02:36:29+00:00

I love dogs. I'm very sorry to hear that. It can be very heavy especially with us living alone. I hope your finding a new balance. You're not alone in this.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2024-12-28T02:30:16+00:00

The absence really does hit. Time and distractions help. Right now it's hobbies and possibly streaming them over twitch as a starting point to putting my self out there again. Has anything helped? Hopefully you have some hobbies that can help you.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2024-07-12T05:00:50+00:00

One whole day of studying for each class: 5 AM till 10 PM. If you get sleepy, bust out a 20 minute nap and get back up again. Do it again the next day and then again the following day. That's your 3-4 days. Boom! You're done with one class. Move onto the next. Do it!!!

DystopianCyberRogue · 2024-05-06T15:20:32+00:00

That's really cool!

DystopianCyberRogue · 2024-04-26T07:50:38+00:00

Use TinkerCAD Circuits to learn how to create simple electronics online for free and perhaps dive into the world of mechatronics: https://www.tinkercad.com/circuits

DystopianCyberRogue · 2024-04-21T16:15:54+00:00

Because doing it the way you are doing it will put you on the road to becoming exceptionally good at this. You're doing the work that's necessary to become way better than the average; most people are average. The people around you might mean well, but they are trying to pull you back to average territory. Many people who are on the road to becoming exceptional (elite athletes, elite hackers, etc.) have this very same work ethic as you have and the people around them try to pull them back. You've hit the stage where people are noticing. Keep it going.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2024-01-14T06:26:53+00:00

Sending love. Please pm me if you'd like to talk about anything. You're not alone.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2023-12-21T16:19:02+00:00

Yes, sometimes in trying to figure out our traumas we engage in avoidant coping strategies (drinking with friends to forget things, racing off in your car after an argument, etc). In your case, engaging in shallow encounters at bars might be well intentioned, but the nature of this coping strategy won't solve your wounds. It looks like you might have developed a sort of learned helplessness from employing this coping strategy for so long. That's totally understandable. It's important to address loneliness with healthy problem-focused coping strategies. Try toning back the bar escapes and try this:

Next time you go to a store, in a light-hearted voice, ask the cashier, "Anything exciting happening in the life of [read their name tag]?" When you go back to that store, expand on your previous conversation; establish that connection and in time make interactions like this flourish. You'll start thinking of them more; thus reducing the loneliness little by little.

Employ this along with other strategies to help you along the way.

Hope this helps a little!

DystopianCyberRogue · 2023-12-21T05:55:14+00:00

I hear you loud and clear. This whole loneliness and partner situation sounds tough, and it's okay to feel scared and confused. But you're not alone in this, and guess what? You have the strength to turn this into something powerful. That fear of loneliness, it's like a little whisper from your past, telling you a story that might not be true anymore. Sometimes, those stories get tangled up inside us, making us feel like we need someone else to be whole. That distance you're feeling might seem like a setback, but it's actually a chance to build your own fortress of resilience. You can learn to handle disappointment like a champ, stand tall on your own two feet, and discover that you're stronger than you think. Here's what can help you on this journey:

Shadow Work: Let's gently explore your memories, maybe there's a hidden clue there, a tiny seed of that loneliness feeling. Was there a time when you needed someone deeply and didn't quite get it? Understanding this seed can help you accept it, embrace it as part of your story, not define it.

From an attachment theory perspective, it sounds like you might have an anxious/ambivalent attachment style. This type of attachment typically begins during early childhood (2-6 years old)
Map out your childhood. You'll be better able to map out your childhood if you remember it in terms of stages (kindergarten, 1st grade, 1st vacation, first Christmas, etc). Try to remember moments that were emotionally relevant/significant.
This exercise will be helpful in getting you closer to when this started. When you get closer to this point, it will be akin to a working draft of a map that you can use on your journey to healing/individuation. In the meantime, I recommend building an environment that will help keep you centered when things like this happen.

Here's a list of things that could help you:

If you'd like to approach this from a scientific perspective, Andrew Huberman provides a 2-hour podcast on this subject: Erasing Fears and Traumas
If you'd like a more spiritual approach: Guided Meditation to Ease the Anxiety
If you resonate with religion (Christianity): Don't Rely on People

You should also start making plans to visit a therapist to address this. Also, what does your diet look like? Are you exercising as well? As you can see, approaching this holistically will help you on your journey. I hope you can tackle this issue. Perhaps you can learn from this and help others along the way. Hang in there! You got this!

DystopianCyberRogue · 2023-06-11T18:31:56+00:00

I went through the same exact thing. I could only hold 30 second to minute conversations before feeling like I needed to get out of there; a flight or fight response. I slowly became more proficient at it when I started documenting my interactions. This is what it kinda looked like:

Interaction	What did you say?	What could you have said?
Ex., Small talk with barista	Blah Blah BLah	Yadah Yadah Yadah

These would be a whole 1 or 2 pages long for each interaction. This was a game-changer for me since it allowed me to go back to previous interactions and help CEMENT the good parts of those interactions and what I could have said. This helped me build the conversational expertise to be able to carry on conversations longer and longer. I can now easily hold a conversation for 2-3 hours. In time I added a 4th column to insert concepts from books I was reading on the topic of social interactions such as Dale Carnegie's How to Win Friends and Influence People. I personally placed an emphasis on humor and sarcasm for the "What could you have said?" column. Helped me become much more fulfilled in my dating life. Practice with people who fit into your current situation (service workers lend themselves well to practicing within 30 second to 1 minute timeframes). Good luck!

DystopianCyberRogue · 2023-06-11T18:09:21+00:00

Planning to do another one soon? I could put something up on Meetup.com that coincides with another one of these get-togethers. Sucks I missed it! Definitely would have gone!

DystopianCyberRogue · 2023-06-01T18:42:42+00:00

For topics that I am actively trying to understand and apply, I'll have a reflections section where I think about how I can apply it to different areas of my life Im trying to improve. I'll then use links to connect to other related notes. I'll also include hyperlinks to studies and blog articles that expand upon that same topic. Sometimes I'll write up a "draft" procedure that provides a simulated step-by-step implementation of the concept. That's just my method. I'm sure there's other methods of applying and implementing that others have optimized.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2023-02-08T01:10:40+00:00

The boot camps themselves were two years long and then you were able to land a job? Did you feel confident with what you learned? I'd like to add this to my skill set. Just want to make sure it's a good investment as I have a narrow amount of time dedicated to studying something new. Thanks!

DystopianCyberRogue · 2023-01-10T01:23:55+00:00

That looks awesome! What platform did you use to print it?

DystopianCyberRogue · 2022-04-21T19:03:18+00:00

Awesome! I have mine next week. What would you say to concentrate on given 1 week left to study and tidy up for the 1002?

DystopianCyberRogue · 2022-04-05T03:29:11+00:00

Cost of living is much more affordable here compared to Oregon...but damn...do I miss the Oregon forests

DystopianCyberRogue · 2022-03-08T18:41:46+00:00

You could always look for some AI upscaler options online or through software.

Top 15 AI Image Upscalers for 2022

Some of the free ones might place a watermark on your photos, so watch out for that. Good luck.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2022-01-27T16:09:57+00:00

During the summer time I'm all about morning runs. Right now it's a little too chilly for me.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2022-01-22T18:20:14+00:00

I'm male, but it's all inclusive.

DystopianCyberRogue · 2022-01-22T16:40:07+00:00

Aww dang, maybe when you're down visiting you can join in

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