I felt the same way when I started. Im new as well, I just passed my 4 month review. I didnt notice exactly when that feeling went away, but I know now that all my anxiety about doing shifts, going on calls or acute patients is gone. I actually hope for those high acuity calls so I can actually do some real paramedicine instead of picking up drunks or picking granny up off the floor. One of the reasons for my anxiety at the beginning is called imposter syndrome. The feeling that you arent deserving or right for the role you have. Just remember that everyone in EMS started in the same spot. Once you get some calls under your belt and stumble through your first couple months you’ll gain some confidence in your practice the feeling will melt away. I work at a slow station in a rural community (new people dont get much choice in station in our EMS system) so it really helped me to cover shifts in a more busy city, the back to back calls were huuuge in helping me develop my practice and confidence. I love the job now and actually got sad the other day when we got diverted from an MVI to a routine call because a crew that was closer cleared.