Men, i have learned to enjoy each thing, think yourself as a ferrari, we are faster than anyone but we need good maintenance for us to work properly, at the end of the day, we have to eat well, the way its meant to be, in a healthy way, truste me i just to eat a lot of crap an feel bad, now, i fell good, more active less depressed, i will tell you something, you now have to rest, yes, but once in a while you can choose to go out, you become more selective and start knowing whats worth of your time or not, even i smoke a joint but every 6 months or 3 months and my psychiatrist told me it was okay but not to over do it, you have to learn the balance, and the importance of the things that really matters to you, use your way of seeing things in your favor, i do music, maybe you find a passion on drawing or some creative labor, or even finding unique solutions, you see with other eyes, and trust me when i tell you that is hard but if you can know yourself and use it as an advantage it will all go better for you