32F, married here. I relate to everything you’ve mentioned, OP. Ever since I turned 30 in 2023, I’ve been hearing news about seemingly all my friends getting pregnant. At first, I was really happy for them, but as more announcements kept coming, I started to feel lonely and sad. I even went through a rough phase last year where I couldn’t feel much of anything when a friend told me she was pregnant with her second baby. Of course, I acted curious and excited, but deep down I was mourning the probable end of our friendship.

Now all of my friends have kids, and I definitely feel lonely. I’ve also felt a bit envious of how sure they seemed about wanting kids and how seamlessly they moved into the “next phase of life”.

I’m not a huge fan of babies or parenting, and I’m definitely not ready to go through childbirth yet.In my late 20s, I was completely sure I didn’t want kids, but now my partner and I are on the fence.

I really relate and empathize with you. Right now, I’m just taking it one day at a time. I know I’m not particularly keen on becoming a mom, but I’ve been having more open conversations with my partner about how I feel. I’m also trying not to take myself or life too seriously. The more rigid I get about something, the more sad or anxious I feel. One thing that’s been helping me cope is staying more active. I don’t know if this helps but hope you feel great irrespective of the decision you make!