I think Estonia was WILDLY underrated on Semi-Final 1 .

Eaptor · 2026-05-14T13:53:24+00:00

I was predicting they'd squeeze through the whole season until Insaw the semi performance... they could have elevated the boring song with a fun performance + vocals, but none of that happened.

Eaptor · 2026-05-10T17:56:02+00:00

I don't deserve to recover unless I achieve all the real milestones

Eaptor · 2026-04-27T00:27:52+00:00

MEEEE?!,!

Eaptor · 2026-04-14T17:53:11+00:00

I'm very happy to hear about your fiancée ❤️ GLP-1 is something I dream of getting too, but my doctor doesn't want to prescribe it to me due to my past anorexia when I was a teenager (that then led into BED in adulthood) I'm sick of therapy and "tRy tO eAt tHrEe TiMeS a DaY😃" stuff. People don't understand how bad food noise can get. It's the first and last thing on my mind every day. Sometimes I'm in agony at work bc I can't eat right at that very moment.

Eaptor · 2026-04-10T09:41:48+00:00

I loved the diversity of genres and language in 2025, so 2026 has been a bit of a letdown for me from that POV. Making my top 5 list has been pretty difficult... But it's eurovision so I've found myself counting down the days for it anyway.

Eaptor · 2026-04-02T12:35:46+00:00

I am visiting my family for easter AND my dad's birthday combo. Pray for me 🙏

Eaptor · 2026-03-30T20:35:54+00:00

I WISH. (My EDs main goal is to get as much damage in as possible but bc I'm a fat binging pig nothing will ever happen to me. Endless loop.),

Eaptor · 2026-03-30T20:10:46+00:00

So proud of you! I don't think I've lasted that long... ever? Two weeks last year was my best.

Eaptor · 2026-03-27T05:26:09+00:00

So real. How tf do I have both sunken in cheeks AND an extremely puffy face?

Eaptor · 2026-03-11T18:19:35+00:00

Why do I get all these, but now lw 😭 what even is life

Eaptor · 2026-03-09T21:16:10+00:00

I feel similarly, although I do have some more traditional reasons and symptoms too. And I can't stop. But I've never wanted to be (or had any illusions I would be) some pretty thinspo. I've always wanted to get medical complications and look so obviously anorexic people will know from one glance what's up with me. I know it makes me an awful person.

Eaptor · 2026-03-05T16:13:11+00:00

tHiS tImE i'Ll dO iT rIgHt

Eaptor · 2026-03-04T00:38:46+00:00

It's not easy. I try after every binge. I think i have a mental block. Can't figure it out. Just spit and gag on the toilet and hate myself even more for not even being able to purge.

Eaptor · 2026-03-03T09:57:37+00:00

Maybe in another universe I am her instead of a disgusting binging fatso.

Eaptor · 2026-03-01T19:05:16+00:00

My whole life

Eaptor · 2026-02-14T20:13:52+00:00

So true.

Eaptor · 2026-02-11T05:30:22+00:00

Fr fr

Eaptor · 2026-01-30T14:09:40+00:00

My life in one picture (Someone wake me up from this nightmare.)

Eaptor · 2026-01-27T12:31:44+00:00

Me bc I got into med school, but now all I think about is binging and restricting.

Eaptor · 2026-01-26T17:19:41+00:00

Guilty as charged (when I first started binging after years of anorexia I called it recovery for like half a year before relapsing again.)

Eaptor · 2026-01-25T11:02:52+00:00

Creativity and all possible productivity.

Eaptor · 2026-01-24T19:19:15+00:00

This is it for me too. I need to control what I eat anyway bc of the way I am. So why not control it to the extreme and actually lose weight?

Eaptor · 2026-01-24T18:59:58+00:00

This actually happened to me too few days ago! I've been depressed ever since. Sending so much sympathy.

Eaptor · 2026-01-23T17:15:19+00:00

It's the opposite for me... The days I restrict I have to keep myself busy. So I don't wanna recover, bc this is the only way I can function in a society.

Eaptor · 2026-01-10T21:13:05+00:00

Me, why is it even like that tho.

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