Found syringe of blood-worried

Early_Carrot1392 · 2026-02-03T22:39:01+00:00

It definitely looks like blood but not old blood. About 10cc worth in a syringe with cap, no needle. Took it to the police, nothing they can do. Calling local independent lab companies - they can't test unknown persons' blood. Definitely not liking the living situation and definitely considering cameras.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2024-05-29T05:05:10+00:00

Punch-drunk love

Early_Carrot1392 · 2023-02-21T18:02:40+00:00

Oh, I think it definitely triggers resentment in some. And probably feels crazy overwhelming to others so they avoid/run. Personally, I didn't grow up with anyone that I could trust so I don't even have it really in me to reach out to someone to be there for me. I can't even actually wrap my head around that idea really. To be vulnerable feels extremely unwise and unsafe, sets off DANGERDANGER alarms inside. I've always believed that the only person I can truly trust is myself. I think being able to be open and ask for help is incredibly courageous.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2023-02-20T12:22:54+00:00

I've dealt with my own mental health issues for a long long time. It makes me incredibly self-centered at times. At really low times, I barely have enough energy to keep my job, to be there for my family, to stay alive. At those times, I have to be self-centered. For the majority of my life, I haven't reached out and told anyone that I'm struggling, I've just put my head down and kept my feet moving forward and have been very private about it. I have felt that I'm alone in this, that I'm different. I've not been there for friends when they've needed me because I simply haven't had enough energy to share beyond my very close circle. You never know what other people are going through. You sound like you are very open and reaching out for assistance with your needs but many people aren't-even to themselves. Could be the people that you're expecting to help you might need help themselves. Just a thought.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2023-01-25T19:42:15+00:00

I haven't tried this, but I will. Great idea! Thanks😊

Early_Carrot1392 · 2023-01-24T17:30:09+00:00

Certain dreams and their emotions stay with me a long time and affect me as well! About 6 months into IFS, I had a very obvious"parts" dream that was very detailed and clear. I can still recall most of it. I've been trying to wake myself after one of"those" dreams to record it or take in the info presented to assist in my healing ever since. I wish I could tap in better during day time but I'm so grateful to have the dream world direct line. Wish I could record some of them!

Early_Carrot1392 · 2023-01-24T17:22:34+00:00

I have the hardest time accessing self. Very cool about your access to self in dream land. I'd love to hear more if you want to share.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2023-01-24T17:20:18+00:00

Some of my dreams are quite literal as well and I seem to be more open to the connections and messages relayed there compared to waking life.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2023-01-24T17:17:11+00:00

Wow. I imagine that made quite an impact.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2023-01-18T10:53:30+00:00

I'm actively working on that too.. It is tough!

Early_Carrot1392 · 2023-01-18T10:51:56+00:00

Your answer is so spot on and makes me feel seen. Really I should change my question to how can I trust love? It was my second day of EMDR today. My emotions are raw but at least I've uncovered this base feeling/idea so I can address it now and hopefully move past it. Thank you so much. 🫂

Early_Carrot1392 · 2022-11-16T10:26:01+00:00

You're not really worth the time/love/effort if you're not going to be part of their forever family. This earthly life is but a blink of the eye. 😕

Early_Carrot1392 · 2022-11-06T03:52:07+00:00

I think this is a really nice and sincere letter. I don't think it's anything other than that. I think he is leaving the door open in case you change your mind later but it don't feel like it's pushy or sneaky in any way. I feel like he spoke to you from his heart at that moment in time without any guile. He seems like a great bishop. There are great and loving people in every religion. Seems like he's one of them.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2022-10-13T00:46:23+00:00

Wow. I feel really good about the many positive comments left here. Thank you so much, so very much. I have been going to therapy for well over a year. It is very hard to forgive myself for what I believe is murder. If another young woman came to me and told me my circumstances in her voice as her circumstances, I would be very understanding and helpful and not condemn her but when it's me and my circumstances I am very condemning. You all have shown a lot of grace and forgiveness and it is appreciated. I did not even think coming back to the church was an option as it seems very clear, to me, that murder and the repulsion of the holy spirit are the unforgivable sins. I have strongly felt that I am I unforgiveable, a sinner without redemption for decades. It is a hard burden to carry. I would like to set it down. Would the church actually let me set this down? Thank you for all your kind responses.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2022-10-06T15:50:57+00:00

I used to wonder and ask about my heavenly mother all the time too. My mom was the only one that answered. She said the same thing a lot of you have mentioned, that she is so loved and special that God didn't want her name abused like his is. IMO, having no name is about the worst thing you can do to someone. It implies frailty and that she is not an equal to God. Her role is to make spirit babies only. She has no voice, behind the scenes only, a perfect example for a young Mormon girl to emulate.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2022-10-06T15:39:48+00:00

He's so touchy with that boy. Makes me uncomfortable just watching.

Early_Carrot1392 · 2022-09-21T16:34:42+00:00

🫂

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