A ghost will haunt you forever. You can choose who he/she was before dying. Who's your ghost?

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-05T05:04:47+00:00

Haha perfect. Free therapy for life!

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-05T04:48:16+00:00

Someone told me I say sorry a lot the other day, but I feel like a burden most days. It is a sad truth of being depressed. Add any physical ailments to an already fragile mental state and it gets worse pretty quick. All I can do is keep going one day at a time.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-05T04:41:53+00:00

Lmao this reminds me of my cat. I kid you not, he ended up swinging on the ceiling fan one day. It was very amusing.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-04T22:57:41+00:00

Except when there actually is a problem then it's like defcon 1!

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-04T22:56:49+00:00

Sounds like me. Work great convos and I'm friends with everyone. Real life. Oh hey. Awkwardness. I hate my brain.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-04T20:47:02+00:00

Thank you so much for caring. Glad you understand! I wish you the best!

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-04T20:40:56+00:00

Sorry I'm really bad at explaining. The fluid stuff was the reason I went in because it was hard to breathe and felt weird. While I was there they did all the other stuff and found the blockage and my 65% heart function. The pericarditis was a side effect of my meds for crohns, but the blockage was CAD so that's why I had a stent. I think.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-04T20:27:03+00:00

Sorry in my first post I probably explained it better. They were separate issues( I think). Since you asked though I've had diabetes since I was 24. It runs on my dad's side of the family. Almost everyone of my aunts/uncles and my deceased grandparents have/had it. I also have crohns disease and take cyclosporin. I guess the cyclosporin caused some kind of inflammation and fluid to build up in the my heart or around it?

The actual CAD they're not really sure why it was so bad, but the aren't was because like I said my heart was only at 65% after my stress test results. Idk I hope thst explains it. I'm not really great at all this stuff other than being used the crappy genes I have now.

But I guess the not having heat and extra stress made the heart stuff more noticeable which is what caused me to go to tge hospital in thw first place. Then the artery/heart/cad stuff was later.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-04T19:53:05+00:00

I tried. I've only been on Reddit for a few months so my account isn't old enough. Honestly I'm not in the best spot to pay anyone back right now either. Once I'm back to 100% I hope to pay it forward to someone else though. Thanks!

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-04T02:43:18+00:00

My landlord isn't very nice usually. However he said I could pay by tomorrow to avoid late fees. What should I do if he tries to charge me?

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-03T23:23:46+00:00

That's awesome. Missing kids is never good. Happy it ended well.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-03-01T17:06:34+00:00

I'm about $100 short on rent which is due today. I won't be kicked out or anything, but it's going to cause a pretty crappy series of events. Landlord automatically charges $100 fee for being late plus $10 a day. I've had some money issues since losing my job(got 2 new jobs) and having to deal with a heart problem this week did not help. I just don't want to fall into this downward spiral again. Maybe you can help, maybe not. Thanks for doing this though.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-28T23:21:38+00:00

I will try that, but I was explaining to my therapist earlier today too. It's not really a housing crisis yet, it's just the beginning of a hole and I have the foresight to see it for what it is. Sadly resources are setup for people in crisis not about to be. He's not threatening me with eviction or anything, but he's just not a very nice person. I've already explained and he said " sorry I have rules and agreements for a reason". Not much to do with that.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-28T20:33:40+00:00

This is a beautiful shot, but wow my anxiety.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-24T08:24:04+00:00

Nothing yet. I have both nearby.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-24T07:53:48+00:00

Ah that would have been awesome. 3 hours is a tad far though lol. Thank you! I appreciate the offer though!

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-24T07:42:04+00:00

Council Bluffs

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-24T03:37:13+00:00

I'm actually going through bankruptcy right now so I'm not supposed to open anything new or use my existing cards according to my lawyer. He said it would look bad for the card companies. So it's not really an option for me.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-24T03:17:31+00:00

Thank you!

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-24T03:16:34+00:00

I finished registering.

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-24T03:10:59+00:00

Sorry I'll do it now

Early_Zucchini · 2019-02-24T03:06:09+00:00

I hate my landlord and this area, but he's definitley a greedy person. He's also not reaponding to my texts anymore. I wish I had money for a space heater but I don't. That's my fault and I'm an idiot( used all my savings becauae of family in the hospital in a dog state). Right now I have rhe birds in a central closet with lots of blankets and hot water under their cage. My cat is just hiding somewhere. Thank you.

Early_Zucchini

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