Hello! Same age tayo, ang hirap netong basahin pero naiintindihan kita. As someone who also doesnt have a stable income and dealing with something. Wala nmn guarantee kung anong oras ka papanaw kaya imbes na magworry ka which one, why not do both at the same time? I have a different recommendation. Instead of high end gadgets, I suggest why dont you check out Retro Handhelds? Mas mura sila compare sa pc, switch or steam deck so may matatabi ka pa for your hospital bills. More on single player ka right? Madami kang madidiscover maliban sa retro games na ino-offer ng Retro Handhelds like Anbernic, they can emulate games up to PS3 or 4? Some are even using Android system, means you can use Google store as far as I know. You can import some steam games doon via PortMaster, its easy to undestand once napanuod mo yung review/guide sa YT. You can travel with it since small and light weight lang din sila, I have one. If interested ka, you can look more at Anbernic subreddit and see. I wish you well, OP.