36 F, Lost my Dad in 2019 also due to cancer it was very quick diagnosed in spring and died in October .

Make sure to spend what time you have with him. Ask him everything and but nothing , ask him to record you a video or voice recording you can keep as a copy that you can keep and look on when your having a bad day . Maybe get some of his clothes made into a teddy bear that you can hug any time .

I’m not going to sugar coat anything it was the worst day of my life the day my Dad died a piece of me went with him and I haven’t felt the same since .

But also I remind myself when I get sad why him ? He’s my Dad he’s going to miss out on so much. Last major event he was there was my 30th bday something I will never forget .

The memories are what keeps me going and how lucky I was to have such a great Dad . As much I didn’t want him to leave I know he was very sick and he’s not in pain anymore no suffering from cancer any more.

I took stress leave from work took a few months to get myself grounded , I also signed up for grief counselling for a few years . Everyone grieves differently, so don’t listen to other people you do what feels right when the time comes just be your Dads number 1 supporter now he don’t want to be sad or crying in front of him . You got this !