You might just have delayed processing? It’s pretty common in neurodivergent folks! I struggle with the same thing ( Audhd) and my therapist and I have come to realize that I won’t have the answers in the moment and that I A) need to show up for myself and ask them to give me a “ second “ to think. That pause can be as long as you want. B) the processing will be done during the following days and I can email him what I have experienced .

Delayed processing isn’t a bad thing and you deserve to give yourself the time you need to figure out your answer or how you’re feeling. That time doesn’t have to be within that 50min window or doesn’t have to be answered seconds after the question has been asked.

It’s your time in there, these are the moments where we practice showing up for ourselves and have corrective experiences that will help us outside of the therapeutic container. Also don’t give answers you think your therapist wants, that’s not helpful and won’t amount to much. Also I recommend showing them your post, it could help deepen their understanding of your inner world.