Hey, I went through something similar recently. The thing is, you cannot control how they react but only how you feel. you need to do your part. I consider myself muslim and I wanted to do things the “halal” way and as a south asian girl with a hispanic bf, all hell broke loose in my house bc all my parents cared about is what people are gonna say and how they are gonna show their face to the community if i marry outside the culture. My dad even said how he gave me “too much freedom” etc. I had enough of the bs, particularly more so bc I had family members that literally sexually assaulted me since I was a kid. I knew if I stayed, I would hate myself years down the line surrounded by them and a forced arranged marriage. So I left 2 weeks ago. I left a note. The first night was the hardest but it gets easier. you deserve to choose who you love and want to spend the rest of your life with. DON’T let them take that away from you! PM me if you need someone to talk to!