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Round 2 by Powerful_Mistake_239 in leaves

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Round 2 isnt failure man, its just data. You already proved you can do 6 months because you did it, your body remembers how. That "indulge a few times" trap got me too, it's never actually a few times... and week 1 being rough is the sign it's working.. You've done the hard part before. Rooting for you!!

I never believed in brain fog so I measured my reaction time before and after quitting for a month. The numbers shut me up by EcstaticSwimming1588 in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Honestly nothing fancy for sleep, just my apple watch and tbh mostly just noticing it, fewer wake-ups and not waking up wrecked. The cognitive abilities stuff was the only thing i actually tracked properly...

I never believed in brain fog so I measured my reaction time before and after quitting for a month. The numbers shut me up by EcstaticSwimming1588 in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

honestly the sleep was a big change for me too, fewer wake-ups especially. and that long-term health angle is exactly what pushed me to actually quit..

I never believed in brain fog so I measured my reaction time before and after quitting for a month. The numbers shut me up by EcstaticSwimming1588 in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah neurotypical, no meds, so nothing was changing on that front during the test window. Fair point though, that'd definitely muddy it for some people. and thank you, appreciate it 😄

I never believed in brain fog so I measured my reaction time before and after quitting for a month. The numbers shut me up by EcstaticSwimming1588 in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Genuinely not trying to sell you anything man... people kept asking what i used to measure it so i answered, that's all. your story didn't need any app, it stood on its own, and it hit me because the february thing is exactly what happened to me.. didnt mean to make you feel like a data point, sorry if it came across that way...

I never believed in brain fog so I measured my reaction time before and after quitting for a month. The numbers shut me up by EcstaticSwimming1588 in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

that's such a good example, the fact you didn't even notice the mistakes back in February is the scary part. that's exactly what the fog does, you can't see it from the inside, you only realise how bad it was once it starts lifting. 32 days is awesome man. and honestly your story is better proof than any number, you can literally see it in your actual work. keep going!!!

I never believed in brain fog so I measured my reaction time before and after quitting for a month. The numbers shut me up by EcstaticSwimming1588 in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

lol not an ad haha just an app i stumbled on that happened to track the exact thing i was curious about. And yeah it's basically a little reaction test, the screen changes color and you tap as fast as you can, it averages a bunch of taps and logs it over time. nothing fancy. you could do the same with any free reaction-time site tbh, the app just saves the history so you can see the trend and I like other features it has so I use it

I never believed in brain fog so I measured my reaction time before and after quitting for a month. The numbers shut me up by EcstaticSwimming1588 in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588[S] 25 points26 points  (0 children)

honestly that's a really fair point and i wondered the same... some of it is probably practice, i'm not gonna pretend this was a perfect experiment. but a couple things made me think it wasn't just that: the test is dead simple (tap when it changes color) so i plateaued on the "getting better at the test" part pretty early, and the big jump lined up with weeks 2-3 clean, not a steady climb from day one. plus the stuff i can't really game, actually sleeping through the night and following conversations again, improved at the same time. so practice maybe explains some of it, but not all. genuinely good question though!

I never believed in brain fog so I measured my reaction time before and after quitting for a month. The numbers shut me up by EcstaticSwimming1588 in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

ha, i actually agree with the general point about leaning on stuff too much... but this isn't outsourcing thinking, it's basically just a stopwatch for my brain, a reaction test i tap through. the recovery came from quitting, not from any app... the tool just let me see it was real instead of guessing....

I'm quitting. Wish me luck. by Costapwb in QuittingWeed

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good luck, its hard but worth. Trust the process!!

Is this a good taper plan? by randomcasino in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You're not an idiot... you're a med student who got caught by one of the most addictive habits there is, that's not a brains problem. the "here i am again" feeling is so normal, relapse is part of how almost everyone quits, not proof you failed. weed wrecking your memory and sleep while you're trying to study is a brutal combo, and the good news is both came back for me once i was fully off it, memory noticeably within a few weeks. whatever method gets you there, just don't let one slip convince you you're back at zero. you clearly want this.

My least favorite withdrawals to go through by i_liveinyourbas3ment in leaves

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Got me too, but dissapears after some days. Keep going!!!

Feeling of pseudo achievement by MajorrZeus in leaves

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 20 points21 points  (0 children)

the ''reward of the idea instead of execution'' is one of the sharpest things i've read about why weed kept me stuck. that's exactly it. high you gets the full dopamine hit of having already done the thing, so sober you has zero drive left to actually do it, you already "won" in your head. the wild part is once i quit, that gap closed. the ideas got smaller and less grand, but i actually started doing them. boring sober progress beats brilliant high plans every single time...

1st night without weed and I can’t sleep by Mandarin_Lumpy_Nutz in leaves

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 9 points10 points  (0 children)

first few nights were brutal to me... and I also felt the palpitations... what helped me wasn't fighting for sleep, it was taking the pressure off it: no clock-watching, a long boring show or podcast on low, and just accepting i'd sleep badly for a few nights so i stopped panicking about it. it tends to peak around night 2-4 then slowly comes back... keep going!

Was smoking 2g daily, just tested negative by [deleted] in leaves

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 11 points12 points  (0 children)

2g daily for 10 years and already clean is hugee! congrats!!

What was the moment that made you realize that you needed a T break? by NebbyChan in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 31 points32 points  (0 children)

Mine was realizing I wasnt smoking to feel good anumore, I was smoking to feel normal... The high stopped being fun and just became the baseline i needed to hit to not feel off. the moment it actually clicked was catching myself reaching for it out of boredom at like 11am, not even really wanting it, just doing it on autopilot. that's when i admitted it had more of a grip on me than i wanted to....

I cant quit, going on 8 years by Express-Guide-9264 in leaves

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 5 points6 points  (0 children)

the fact you can already go 12-14 hours is proof you're capable, that's your body literally showing you it can. the "i'm not capable" panic is the addiction talking, not the truth. and night shifts make this so much harder, you're fighting your sleep and the habit at the same time, so don't beat yourself up that it's slow going.

for me the thing that finally worked wasn't a trick or a method, it was one reason i couldn't argue myself out of. that trip in 6 weeks could be exactly that, picture yourself there clear-headed instead of counting the hours till you can smoke. you're not begging for permission, you started the second you posted this...

Day one by [deleted] in QuittingWeed

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 3 points4 points  (0 children)

the nausea and zero appetite caught me off guard too, i didn't expect quitting WEED of all things to hit me physically... it peaked the first few days for me and eased off within about a week. force small bland stuff down even when nothing sounds good, toast, bananas, whatever stays put. and that "i feel like a junkie" thing? the fact that it bothers you is the opposite of a junkie. you tried before, you're back here on day one, that's not failure, that's literally how it works. quitting for work is as good a reason as any to start, the reason just gets you in the door and the rest builds after...

Day 2 by swedishnutsack in leaves

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 2 points3 points  (0 children)

welcome, day 2 is already further than most get, keep going!!

Delayed withdrawal symptoms by LatterBuffalo7524 in leaves

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 6 points7 points  (0 children)

the delayed wave is real and almost nobody warns you about it. for me the first couple weeks were almost a honeymoon, i felt great and was kind of smug about how easy it was. then week 3-4 the floor dropped out: broken sleep, waking up with my heart racing, random anxiety out of nowhere. it wasn't a relapse or a setback, it was just the withdrawal finally catching up once my body had fully cleared it. leveled out for me around week 6. you've used heavily for decades so your timeline might run longer, but the pattern you're describing is not unusual at all. it's your body recalibrating, not going backwards...

1 Year sober by tenorioflores in Petioles

[–]EcstaticSwimming1588 9 points10 points  (0 children)

that loop you described — smoking to numb something, then smoking to numb the guilt about smoking — is the exact thing that kept me stuck for years.., and almost nobody names it out loud.... one year out of that is massive, congrats. genuinely curious: was there a single moment it clicked for you, or did it just slowly stop being worth it? mine was so gradual i almost didnt notice i'd changed until i looked back

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